Pretend I'm Screaming This

My Darling

My darling,

It's day three of what could have been the beginning of a lifetime.

But I've spent the whole time convincing myself you're not there.

Because I'm sure you'll understand,

That I can't be with you.

I'm too young, I can't even convince myself to stay in school.

I'm too fragile, I still can't tell if the things that go bump in the night are in my head or not.

I'm too scared.

I'm too sure.

Too sure that I know I can never have you.

Unsure of whether you're even there yet everytime I look down to where you might be,

My heart clenches in a way that it's never done before.

And it hurts me to think that you could have been something amazing,

Something incredible.

The only thing I would have ever really loved.

And I made you disappear before your heart could even beat.