kissing booth ¦ p.jimin ✔

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dahyun's point of view

"gaga, sunod na kayo, bilisan mo diyan!" sigaw ni nayeon sa akin habang naglalagay ako ng contact lens.

"wait lang, wait lang!!!!!!" sigaw ko habang nagpapanic

"gago, joke lang hehe" sabi ni nayeon ng naka peace sign, agad ko naman siyang binato ng makeup brush.

nandito ako sa isang room at nagpreprepare para sa performance namin mamaya.

i never thought only me and jimin will perform in front of the whole campus. sanay kasi ako na ang group ko ang nagpeperform pero hindi yung mag isa lang.

i breathed in, before going outside the room at pumunta sa stage, then i see him stealing a glance at me while i was walking. agad ko naman siyang tinitigan para tumigil na.

"tinitingin-tingin mo diyan? gandang ganda ka naman sakin?" i asked jokingly while walking in his place

"of course" jimin smiled, i felt my cheeks getting red.

"oh, bakit ka namumula, kinikilig ka 'no?" tanong niya, agad naman akong umiwas ng tingin.

"ulol, blush-on yan! gusto mo lagyan kita?" tanong ko at bigla naman siyang ngumiti, abno ata ito.

"let's all welcome dahyun and jimin!" agad naming narinig sa may stage at agad na kaming pumunta doon.

as i stepped on the stage, ramdam ko yung kaba ko na halos gusto ng tumalon at mag hi sa akin at sabihin "hi gago, ako yung nervous mo sa katawan, mwaps!".

pagdating namin sa gitna ng stage ni jimin, agad naman akong tumingin sa may side, at nakita ko sina jihyo na hindi ko alam kung chineecheer ako or pinagtatawanan. pumwesto na si jimin sa piano and he started playing it.

ako yung unang kumanta

Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes
But it's the only thing that I know
When it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing makes us feel alive

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jimin's point of view

Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes
But it's the only thing that I know
When it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing makes us feel alive

i stared at dahyun while singing. i never thought na pareho kaming nasasaktan sa sitwasyon na ito, i know na hindi maayos ang ginawa ko sa kanya, pero para sa kanyang safety ito.

We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
And time's forever frozen still

i wish wala nalang pabida sa mundo, i wish everyone could be happy and feel loved in their souls. sana wala nalang nasasaktan sa aming dalawa. i wish everything was perfect.

So you can keep me
Inside the pocket of your ripped jeans
Holding me closer 'til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone, wait for me to come home

sumabay ako sa kanya sa chorus, she looked at me while smiling, i respond also with a smile. i never thought i'd hurt this fragile and precious girl in front of me.

then i started singing

Loving can heal, loving can mend your soul
And it's the only thing that I know, know
I swear it will get easier
Remember that with every piece of you
and it's the only thing we take with us when we die

i hope loving can heal every broken pieces that i broke in your heart. alam ko ang pinagdaanan mo, and i never thought na magkakaganon ka.

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dahyun's point of view

i never thought na this song will make me bleed and make me sad. in every lyrics of the song nakakarelate ako, lalo na at ang ka duet ko pa ay ang taong sinaktan ako.

And if you hurt me
Well, that's okay baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won’t ever let you go

When I'm away, I will remember how you kissed me
Under the lamppost back on Sixth street
Hearing you whisper through the phone
"Wait for me to come home"

if only words bleed, why is my heart and my self  also bleeds and thorn apart?

we finished the song at agad nagpalakpakan ang mga tao, rinig ko naman ang cheer ng mga kaibigan ko.

lumapit naman sa akin si jimin, at biglang ngumiti.

then, it hit me.

in this moment, it hit me how his smile shown in his face right now is also the smile he showed also when i'm suffering. tears escaped in my eye at bigla nalang akong tumakbo papaalis sa lugar na ito.

why did you enter my life again when you will only hurt me?