Impossible | e.d (book one)

'Impossible'

Author's note:

I'm back wooohoooo, at least for this chapter HAHA.

I got my new MacBook, so it'll be easier to write now and I can write this summer as well aye.

As I've said before, there won't be a chapter every single day. School's much and everything else. Finding the time and inspiration can be hard sometimes, so I publish when I have the time, inspiration and energy.

I love writing, don't get me wrong on that, but as said before, if you keep writing every single day, for me at least, you loose inspiration, or it gets harder to find. That's why I don't publish every single day. I want to give you guys the best chapters so I'm taking my time with them. There are some times when I publish every day of the week or three days in a row, but with school almost over, there's a lot of things happening and right now I don't have the time.

I'm really looking forward to summer though. Being able to write almost everyday<3

Also, this book is the LAST chapter, but as you guys know, there will be a sequel, so it's not completely finished((:

Anyway, ENJOYYYY!!!!

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[Ethan's POV]

"Kayla no-" I said-trying to sit up properly. "I can't"

I was too ashamed to look her in the eyes. I just said no to something I really want. Her.

But she ruined it and I can't help but see Shawn and her now. It ruins everything. Why did she do that? I know we're not together and she doesn't know that I like her or the other way around, if she even feels the same, but it still fucking hurts.

This was the night that I was gonna confront her and tel her how I feel, but instead, she makes out with another guy. Shawn to be exact. The idiot that said all those filthy and nasty things about her and what he was gonna do to her. Imagine If I wasn't there. Imagine what would've happen between them

"ETHAN" I snapped back into reality-a little shocked. I forgot that Kayla was here. I just got lost in my own thoughts while she was trying to talk to me.

I looked up at her with a 'what' written on my face.

"What do you mean you can't?" she relaxed herself-looking at me-hurt.

Ugh I can't see her like this, I need to fix myself before anything happens between us too.

"I-uh.." I was struggling to find words as I scratched the back of my neck-trying to come up with something.

I didn't want to lie to her, but I didn't want her to know the truth either...

"I just can't. Us, this, it won't work out" I looked her in the eyes, trying not to show any emotions. I didn't want to turn back to the dark me, the guy with no sense of emotions whatsoever.

"What do you mean? O-of course you can. I'm here aren't I?" she sounded desperate, but why? What was in such a rush?

I stood up from my bed, pacing around the room-trying to come up with an excuse, but at the same time, not hurting her.

"Ethan, please" she was nearly crying.

UGH STOP THAT, STOP THAT FUCKING SHIT. I CAN'T HANDLE IT.

My thoughts were taking over.

"Kayla, us two, won't happen. Anything that's happened in the past, nothing matters, nothing between us will ever matter"

Fuck that came out too harsh. I could see the teardrops from her eyes run down her cheeks as her face held a shocked expression.

"B-but the f-first day..." she looked down at her feet. "The plane..." she looked up at me. Eyes red as a rose.

Fuck, I just hurt the one person that I truly really care about, besides my family.

"What about it?" I said crossing my arms-trying to hold the heartless act.

"You've changed, that's all". Her head dropped again as she took a deep breath-trying to calm herself.

"Look, I'm sorry" I walked over to her-sitting down beside her-stroking her thigh in comfort. "There's just too much that has happened, that you don't know about so-" I took a deep breath before saying the next thing. I knew this would ruin everything, but maybe that's for the best. Maybe her and I were never meant to be.

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[Kayla's POV]

"Look I'm sorry" his voice sounded soft right now. Not like before. Not heartless and cold, but he sounded sincere.

He walked over to me and sat down on the bed, right beside me as he stroked hid hand up and down my thigh. Not in a sexual way though, but in a comforting way.

I've never really seen this side to Ethan. It was quite nice, but at the same time not. I know I fucked up and I hate myself so fucking much right now.

"There's just too much that has happened, that you don't know about-so" he sounded hurt and like he was holding back tears. And what did he mean? Too much that have happened? What happened to him and what is it that I don't know. Why does it have to be this way?

I looked up at him as he took a long deep breath before finishing his sentence.

"So us, it's impossible"

Impossible...

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I'm sorry that this chapter, being the last one, was so short. I'm gonna start the sequel soon, so look out for that. I'm not gonna say what it's called, so I'll let you guys guess.

Anyways, writing this, my first book, has been sooooo fun. I never thought that I'd actually write a fan fiction/book, but I did and after everything you guys have said, I've seem to done pretty good HAHA.

I LOVE ALL OF YOU GUYS AND THANK YOU FOR READING MY FIRST BOOK xxx - o