Life and Love (My Fight Against Cancer)

Treatment day

Hi all. I just want to thank all of you who took time reading my thoughts. Actually I an not used to share my thoughts especially if it is pain or struggles. I used to keep it to myself then after winning everything, that's the time that I will tell my parents and my close friends what had happened to me. And the usual, they will scold me for fighting it alone, for surpassing the heartaches all by me.  My reason, for my parents I don't want them to worry on me, they have done a lot for me, sacrificed a lot just to be able to give me a good life better than them, they have worked hard for me to work harder and harder just to see me receive that passport for a better living as what we all believe . The diploma, education, is always what they utter to me as their greatest gift, which I am thankful of. That despite of my tatay being uneducated, he worked everything just to be able to send me to a government school. I am blessed to have them that's why I had make a promise to myself when I was in 6th Grade that someday If I will encounter some life's circumstances, I will keep it to myself first and make a ways out of it before I will tell my parents so they won't worry on me.

But this Cancer, I wasn't able to keep it from them. Well to my tatay, yes. He still doesn't know what I am going through because me and my nanay are just careful in hiding my situation. Tatay is not as strong as nanay I reckon, every time I feel sick back then, he panicked and will end up sick as well, that's why we just decided to keep it from him and with the plan of telling him once everything is done, once I claim my victory. Once I am born again. It is hard fighting for this far from my parents but I need to sacrifice.

Thank you to all of you who took some of your time reading my thoughts. Thanks to a friend that I have meet here in watty who encouraged me to post my thoughts, I have been writing a lot but just keep it to myself. Every chemo I write some thoughts and keep it. But a friend here is persistent in telling me to post it and just don't mind if they will or won't appreciate it because what's important is I got a new outlet as I walk on my challenging journey. Please allow me to mention you here BlackBlueBiege  . Thanks to you and to your favourite person as well. Thank you for your encouragement, support and prayers. That means a lot to me. Thank you also to  new friends who offer prayers to me @rastrorebel23 , pluviopilya and MVRastro . Thank you so much to all of you. Your prayer means a lot. There maybe others who have offered their prayers to me but I just didn't know it, I also want to thank all of you. This is not an easy journey but I know I will definitely win this battle because God will never give me anything that I can't handle and I got all of you my prayer warriors. Kaya laban lang po ako.

Today I need more prayers. It is my chemo day and I need prayers that my body will accept all the medication so all the drugs will be finished. I need to have everything inside my body for my complete healing. I had two sessions in the past where the drugs where not accepted so they were not able to finish it.

Thank you for all the prayers. Sorry for posting it here. Kinapalan ko nalang po face ko ngayon para ma post ko to... ( sorry no proofreading, a bit in a hurry co'z I need to prepare my food and other stuff and of course I need to catch my bus so I won't be late for my 9ish appointment)

Thank you for all your prayers. All drugs were accepted by my body. I will again experience painful days but I just need to deal with it for my complete healing.

Whoever you are who took some time to read my thoughts and pause for a moment to offer a prayer for me, thank you so much. God knows how much it means to me. I will definitely win this battle because I got heaps of prayer warriors.

More prayers will help me a lot.

Have a great day everyone.

-1June2018-
3:30am