The lost kardashian

Aggression issues

-What look should we do today? My makeup artist Mario asked. My family and I are going to some kind of event today. It's a red carpet, dinner, and then people wins awards. I think it's a singer competition and my family is just there because we are famous, I don't know. I guess it's going to be fun.

-I don't know, you can decide. But it has to match with my dress, I said and smiled.

-Okay, it's black right? 

-Mhm, I said. 

He did my makeup in around 1 hour. I checked it in the mirror and it honestly looked so good. 

-Thank you! My face litterly look so good right now! I said to him and smiled.

-Yes girl! Go get you dress. You will definitely look the best at that competition. And girl your hair looks amazing!

-Thank you! I said and hugged him.

I putted on the dress, it was so beautiful. It's a black, long, open back dress. I went down to the kitchen and saw something I didn't want to see.

-Why do everybody wear black dresses? I said and relized this red carpet was about to be embarrassing. I mean we all wore the same dresses, and we look very alike in the face and on our bodys.

-We decided that we would look alike today, it makes great family pictures, my mom said.

-Family pictures? We are taking our family pictures at a red carpet?

-Yes, good right?

-Uhm no. Why can't we take family pictures at home? And does it makes us less family if we wear dresses in different colors? Honestly I was pissed of, i didn't even know why this pissed me off that much. I guess I just want a normal life.

-Looks like somebody woke up on the wrong side today, Kendall said and everybody laughed. She was so right, I have barley slept because I had anxiety over a fucking ice cream the whole night.

-Shut the fuck up before I fucking hit you in your fucking face! I screamed.

-Kenza! You don't say things like that to your sister! My mom said and I could tell she was getting mad.

-I can say whatever the fuck I want.

-No, you have to apologize to your sister.

-Nope, never. Why do we have to go to this event?! I was still screaming.

-Get yourself together and stop screaming. You should be grateful that you can go to events like this. People are starving and you are complaining about having to go to an event? That's not okay.

-Well, I'm starving too so shut the fuck up, I said and instantly regretted it. I just litterly said that I was starving in front of my whole family.

-What do you mean? Kim asked.

-I can make you cupcakes if you want! Mom just learned me how to do them! North said shyly. I felt really bad because all the kids had to hear me this mad.

-No north, it's okay, but thank you. I said and hugged her.

You messed up. How fucking stupid can someone be? You have gotten yourself into trouble. Go cut. No. Cut! No. Go cut now! I couldn't stand the demons, I knew I had to give in to them.

-I'm sorry for getting mad Kendall, I just haven't slept very well and it's really embarrassing that we are wearing the same glam and outfits. I will do my best to be happy at the event ok? I just have to go to the toilet and then we can leave, I said and hoped they would accept it.

-Okay, my mom said. She couldn't hide her frustration with me but since she was calm I guess we're good.

I walked to the toilet close to my room, that's where I have my blades, and locked the door. I grabbed a blade and started to drag it across my right thigh. 

Good girl. Just listen to us and your life will be great again. One more cut.

I listened and all of the sudden one cut turned into seven.

-Kenza! Hurry up, we have to go! Kendall screamed from downstairs.

-One minute! 

I cleaned the cuts and bandaged it. I hid my blades and walked downstairs, nobody except one of our drivers was there.

-Your family is already in the cars. You are in the right one with Kendall, Kylie, and Kris. He said and I nodded. They were talking, but right when I got in the car they got completely quiet. It looked like my mom had been crying. I just sat down and checked my phone. After a while my mom opened her mount and said the last thing I wanted to hear...