The lost kardashian

Demi Lovato

-Everyody take a seat! They said in the microphone. We had already been on the red carpet and the red carpet interviews, so it was time to eat.

-Where are we sitting? I asked mom

-Here, she said and pointed at a couple of chairs. 

I sat down and waited for the food. To not make anyone suspicious (family or fans since there are lots of cameras) I decided that I would eat the whole meal and just try to enjoy the dinner. Everybody started to eat and it actually felt okay until the dessert came in. I took a bite and my anxiety started to get worse. 

It's okay. You can eat it, just make sure you purge later. You don't want to get fat right?

Wow, my demons were actually pretty nice today. I ate the rest of the dessert and my anxiety was overwhelming at this point.

-Mom, where is the toilet? I asked

-In public places you say bathroom, she answerd

-What the fuck? No I have to go to the toilet and pee, I said out loud just to embarrass her. It was one of my favorite things to do.

-It's there, but don't do anything else than what you just said okay? No purging, she said. 

-What? No! I answered and pretended to be shocked.

I went to the toilet. I checked the stalls to see if anyone was there, but i was alone. 

 Kris pov:

My little baby did exactly what I was afraid of. She ate, and then asked to go to the toilet. I don't want to think that she might be throwing up right now, but I was really worried about it. I layed my head in my hands and tried to think of something else, it didn't work.

-Mom are you okay? Don't lie to me, what's wrong? Kim asked worried. 

-I'm worried that Kenza will throw up, I answered.

-I can go check her if you want?

-No, she will get really mad if you do.

-But what are we going to do then? She is a former anorexic, and she really seemed to struggle with this dessert. 

-Is everything okay? The woman sitting next to me asked, it was Demi lovato.

-Yes, everything is fine, I lied. I felt bad for lying but I can't just tell everybody about my daughters problems.

-Just tell her the fucking truth! Kenza is at the toilet, probably throwing up, and we don't know what to do, Kendall said loud enough for our family and Demi to hear, but no one else heared.

-Do you want me to do something? Demi asked.

-If it's okay for you, it would be really nice if you just went to the restroom and checked if she's throwing up or not. You really don't have to, I mean if it's triggering you in any way, you really shouldn't, I answered. I did know about her struggles with eating disorders and the last thing I wanted to do was making her relapse.

-No, it's okay. Should I believe any excuses or..? She asked.

-No, She doesn't have a reason to throw up.

Demi nodded and started to walk to the restrooms.

Kenzas pov:

I bent over the toilet and threw up everything I just ate. I flushed the toilet and opened the door, and guess who was there. Demi lovato. That's probably the last person I wanted to see right here right now. I know she have struggled with an eating disorder in the past, so lying to her won't be easy.

-Are you okay? She asked worried

-Yeah, why wouldn't I be? I asked hoping what she didn't hear me throwing up.

-You just threw up.

-Uhm, yeah. I'm on my period and I have really bad cramps, I said. 

-Do you want me to believe that? Your family was really worried about you throwing up so I decided to check up on you myself. I know it might sound weird because we don't even know each other, but they couldn't go because they were afraid of making you angry.. I cut her off.

-Did they ask you to check up on me? I asked and she nodded.

-Fucking bitches! I said and trust me, I was mad. They didn't go by themselves, they send another fucking person to go check up on me. I thought they understood that I wanted this to stay in the family.

-You shouldn't be mad at them, they are just worried about you. And I am to, why are you doing this to yourself? She asked. I ignored her question and asked one instead.

-Are you going to tell them? About me throwing up?

-I have to, you can't go through this alone.

-You can't tell them, it will ruin my life! I almost screamed at her.

-No, but if you keep doing this to yourself, you will ruin your life.

-Please, I'm begging you, don't tell them. I promise to not do it again if you just don't tell them, I said. At this point I was crying, barley breathing, and having really bad anxiety.

-Hey, focus on your breathing, she said and showed me how to breath normally. As I said, I forget about that sometimes. When I was breathing normal (still crying though), she hugged me. 

-It will be okay, it will be okay. But I have to tell them and you have to get help. 

I let go of her and started to feel how embarrassed I was. She's a stranger, I mean I don't even know her, but she knows one of my secrets now. I liked her though, it felt Iike she actually cared about me.

-I'm going out to the dinner again. You know you can always write me a message if you need to right? I want to help you, she said and I smiled.

-Thank you, I said and she left. I cleaned up my face and tried to get myself ready to walk out, that was harder than I thought. I mean, all of them will know now, how will they react to me relapsing?