Falling for a nerd august-alsina fan-fiction ( editing)

Not for you ..

(Shantay pov )

After a week of thinking about what August said I started thinking he could be right about me not being able to handle him , but then again look who my brother is he should know that it attracts me closer to him knowing that I can't have him . But I can't let him take my heart that easily I gotta remain the same nerd I was before he knew I was T's sister , it's hard though when he's always at my house with my brother and my mom treats him just like she treats T .

" shay " my mom yelled down the hallway .

" yes ma " I said opening her door slowly .

" I want my house clean befa I get off work ya understand ?" She looked at me over her glasses with her New Orleans accent thickening .

" it will be ma " I said breathing heavily I walked into out kitchen and began sweeping little things off the floor before I had to mop , I started mopping I'm the living room and slowly worked my way back into the kitchen . After I was done mopping I took each and every dirty cup , bowl , and spoon etc.. And set it on a towel on the side of the sink ; I started up some dish water and continued doing the fishes until there was no more left .

( 30 minutes later )

I sat in my bed slowly reading the biology packet that sat in from of me right along with my algebra homework , right now I don't even want to do homework I just wanna sleep but I can't go to bed until I finish this homework and I have to wait for T to get home because he left his key here . Just as I was about to lay down the phone rang.

" hello " I said in a wire out tone .

" is this shay ?" The familiar voice said through the phone .

" that depend on who's askin'"

" awhh ma it's August I jus wanted to know if T was home ?"

" uhm no I though he was wit you "

" nahh , he was suppose to meet me at my house ."

" oh well he ain't here . " I said hanging up on him ."

After talking to him I wasn't even really tired anymore I was irritated so I took out my small purple she white diary and started scribbling down my thoughts .

Honestly , it bothered me that T just got ta run the streets wheneva he wanted with August and whoever the hell else he be with and my mom still let's him go and do whatever even though me and her both know he be up to know good , it seems like I pick up all the slack for him he don't do a damn thing but get high , shit , and sleep while I'm bussin' my ass with school , and chores , shit my mama never home the only time she's really here is in the morning or sometimes on the weekend and T ? Who the hell knows with him anymore I get tired of this shit .. And then I sort of like somebody I can't be with because we're not even mentioned in the same sentence together I'm the school nerd and he's a jock he goes to parties I study he's everything I'm not someone like him doesn't fall in love with someone like me .

I finished writing in my diary and stuck it back under my bed and went downstairs to sit in the living room to watch tv until T finally decided to show up . One o'clock went by Two o'clock passed by and the time just kept going until I heard loud knocks on the door I jumped off the couch and sprinted to the door and looked through the peep hole then opened the door and as soon as I opened it I got a huge smell of grey goose , cheap perfume , and weed .

" T wea the hell you been ? " my voice echoed through the small house as I yelled at him .

" look hea aiight I'm grown as fuck ion need you keepin' tabs on me " his words slurred as he talked walking toward me .

" I had to wait for you to get home because yo dumb ass left your housekeys on the table " I said putting my fingers in his face .

" get yo damn hands out my face , I do what the fuck I want now move so I can go to my room " I moved slowly out of his way and he started off for his room .

" your just like daddy" I said chuckling with tears coming out if my eyes .

T stopped and them started dragging his way back toward me " what the hell you say ta me shay ?" He said getting closer to my face .

" Your just like him , you out there at all hours of the night drinking , smoking doin whateva the hell you want , drivin' ma crazy I don't blame her for giving up on you .

T stared at me for a second before pushing me to the ground " I will never be like him , I'm not a fucking alcoholic , I do what I do because what else I got shay ? What the hell else ? Tell me what the hell I got going for me ? Not a damn thing look around here this ain't shit we been living in this same little ass house , mom working day and night just barley puttin' food on da table if she can't pay this shit who can ? That's shh I gotta be out here doing what I do you understan . He was yelling at me with his chest heaving I never seen him on the verge of tears but this time I really got to him ...

" and one more thing you stay the hell away from August he ain't nothin' for you do I make myself clear " he said getting louder but I stayed silent he dragged himself a little closer , I said " do I make myself clea ( clear) ?"

I nodded slowly and walked to my room while he did the same .

I need someone to talk to but that someone I wanna talk to is someone I can't show a vulnerable side to him but I have to see him even if it might hurt my relationship with my brother ...

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I know I been slacking on y'all , but thanks for being patient with me you guys y'all are some good fans I'm going to try to update thistle often and it may be boring right now but just roll with me , love y'all 🙌💯👌