stalker | hyunjin

拾陸

[seventeen ; the bathroom stall]

"HAVE YOU SEEN HYUNJIN LATELY? he's been so depressed." myung hee lets out a sigh and returns to reading her favourite novel whilst sipping coffee at the closest café near school. hei ryung couldn't manage to say anything, the memories from a fortnight ago only proved she wasn't a real friend to hyunjin and that she abandoned him to be left with a stalker for her own safety. it seemed reasonable at the time but what about about hyunjin? the last few days, whenever hyunjin encountered her sight of vision, she could only watch him from afar, dipped in pity and swallow her guilt.

thoughts kept running through her mind,
"am i really going to leave him like this?"
"if he was in my position, would he have acted differently?"

it wasn't really a fair thought, but reminiscing their times together and when they had first gotten closer, she recalls hyunjin throwing away his fear in order to protect her from the strangers that had followed myung hee and her all the way to the car park despite his lack of strength against 3 bulkier men.

"from the very beginning.." she whispered to herself, the sudden epiphany of hyunjin risking his life for her despite their cordial relationship almost inexistant at the time, he still went to help her. tears began to blur her vision and she clenched her fists well aware of what she put hyunjin through.
that was already enough to convince her, to change her mind.

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insomnia carved to the back of his brain, sleep ceased to exist in his routine for the last couple of weeks since seungmin's incident. dried out and red swollen eyes from crying to the point he had no tears left in his system - he was helpless. he didn't care that he was getting thinner by the day, he didn't care that his cheeks were hollow or the fact that his skin was ghastly and blanched. if hei ryung gave up on him, he might as well give up on himself too, he reasoned, allowing to blame his behaviour to be a rational reaction to his current situation. sitting in the men's bathroom for almost 20 minutes now, he opened the bottle of stress relievers from the right pocket of his blazer, he takes a few pills and gulps it down, running to the tap and bringing his hands down to the faucet and sipped on the water.

once again, he felt like vomiting and crouched down to the last stall of men's toilet, throwing up the digested lunch he consumed moments before.

"way to go hyunjin, there goes your lunch." he uttered as he reached for the toilet paper and wiped his mouth. "and waste of a pill." he sighs. once he flushes the toilet, he decides to head back to class despite being thirty minutes late. at least he'd still have time to catch up on sleep knowing the stalker couldn't do anything to him in the crowded room.

turning around, hei ryung stood a few meters in front of him, her mouth opening and closing as if asking him permission to speak.
"h-hei r...ryung? what are you-" he was engulfed in a hug, being dragged back inside the stall with the door closing behind her. she tightly wrapped her arms around his waist almost shattering his rib cage from her strength with her sobs now filling the vacant compartment echoing throughout the restroom.
"i-i'm s-s-so sorryyyyyyyyyy!" she yells, her only fear presently was letting him go again. "i was being selfish, i-i-i'll never leave you again!" she cries, her eyes shut and gripping his blazer as if her life depended on it. tears wanted to well up in his eyes but instead he smiled and patted her head comfortingly.

"hei ryung what are you doing here?" he looks down at her and meets eye contact. their noses only inches apart. noticing the lack of space between them, she immediately releases her hold around him only for hyunjin to place his hand on her back, preventing her to let go.
"well i followed you here and waited for you to get out but you didn't so i-"
"okay. i got it." he intervened, cutting her off. "did you see everything?" she nodded, resuming to struggle out of his hold at the same time. it wouldn't have done her much good if she knew it'd result to hyunjin clutching onto her tighter. he wraps his arms around her shoulders, his head resting beside her cheek.

"i'm so tired hei ryung." he breathed in her ear, falling to sit back on the lid of the toilet seat. his hands moved to her lower back, hugging her waist, caressing down her spine, his head now leaning against her stomach.
"get some sleep, i'll be here when you wake up."

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sorry i'm so inactive and sorry this is just a filler chapter. i just managed to have the time to write again and so i guess i'm also sorry for my shitty writing. i'm a bit rusty lmao. BUTT i'm going to start updating again cause i really really really wanna finish this story so please bear with me. thank you for reading 💕💕 love youssss