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JIN

It's funny how time flies by so quickly... That moment is still fresh as ever in my memory. That moment which could either have been my life changer or Wrecker... I honestly don't know though. But I just made the choice without looking back or thinking through the consequences or what the aftermath of this decision would be. There's this lingering feeling in my heart like I've been fooling myself all this while and that we actually aren't gonna make it. To be precise I've had this feeling in the pit of my stomach ever since the day I was recruited as a member..

Perhaps have I made the right choice?
It's funny how few years back I got a call from SM ENTERTAINMENT asking me whether I would consider doing an audition for them. Yeah I know people would do anything to get in there as it was the biggest entertainment company in the entire kpop industry, only fools would reject such an offer, not that I know of any.
Except ofcourse me, the biggest Pabo who thought someone was playing a sick joke on me and I literally told them not to prank me before hanging up and never showed up for the audition. Sometimes I wonder where would I be in my life if Bang PDnim hadn't recruited me for bighit.

I still remember it was a sunny day and I was on a bus with my headphones on listening to one of Bigbang Sunbaenims' songs and humming along with it and boy!

They were hella awesome. I respected them a lot for their hardwork and passion in making awesome songs. I always wondered what it would be like to chase your dream with such passion, I always wondered what it would be like to cope up with the growing fame thereafter and I always wondered what kind of difficulties, criticisms one has to go through to go high up that level. Maybe I would understand that only when I'm able to realise what exactly I wanted to do in life. Well for now I was attending acting school and I liked it alot I wouldn't lie though. I've always wanted to act, Honestly I know I am handsome so why not give it a try? haha! I know it's cocky much right?

Though my father has his own business, weirdly I didn't have any interest in joining. I wanted to do something I loved and not regret in the future. I wanted to discover my true passion in life. But at the same time I was unsure about everything in my life. There was a fear nagging me constantly and made me question myself, it made me question my ability and maybe that feeling was the one that held me back in taking any further steps to discover my dream. I had to overcome it and I knew only then I would get the answer to my question.

The sudden halt of the bus shook me out of my reverie and I saw that it was my que to get down the bus. People were scurrying out of the bus in a rush and I followed closely behind. Then as I was walking around the street I heard someone calling out to me.

"Jogiyo? (excuse me?)" I turned to see a middle aged man looking at me with a very keen and observatory gaze. It looked as if he was comprehending something while staring at my face.
I quickly cleared my throat to break the awkwardness that surrounded us and decided to speak.
"Umm.. Do you need any help sir?" I asked as I bowed my head in respect.
His face contorted into a smile as he held out his hand for a shake.

"Hello I'm one of the staff members from Bighit Entertainment" He greeted me with a smile.

Again I bowed down awkwardly and greeted him in a state of confusion as to what he could possibly want from me when he started speaking again.
"What's your name kid?" he asked as he grazed his chin with his fingers still contemplating something.

"Er... It's Kim Seokjin Sir". I replied scratching my neck in nervousness as well as confusion

"Well.. Mr. Kim you're very handsome." He said out of the blue which took me completely off guard and I just stood there blinking like a statue.

Did he just compliment me? Not that I don't know I'm handsome but I didn't expect it coming out of the mouth of a stranger with whom I just met on the street.