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J-Hope

I closed my nose as I threw the sweat and tears soaked t-shirt into the laundry and walked to my small draw and started to search for a fresh piece of clothing to wear and finally found a t-shirt with tiny holes sprayed across it... The aftermath of wearing a clothing over and over and lack of proper laundry... As I was slowly enlarging a small hole lost in how my life is going... We trained , debuted...
That isn't enough... We or at least I need some recognition!
All we get is either Nobody's group or poor boys! My internal brain wants to break down and weep... But I always stand up and walk around with the brightest smile... I think the members are now only understanding that even this Hopeful and fun JHope undergoes stress and worries...
My thoughts were interrupted by Jin Hyung half yelling," Yah! I won't allow half naked men in my household! Put some clothes on, Hoseok-ah! "

"Hyung!" I complained with a frown and wore the T-shirt and laid down flat on Yoongi Hyung's bed trying to gain some hope as I know that our group are far away from being successful...

"Yah! Get up! Joonie wants to talk to all of us it seems... ", Jin hyung said as he pulled me up on my feet and made me stand.

As I entered into the Bangtan Meeting Room, our small living room, I notice Yoongi hyung dozing off in the corner, Jin hyung pulling Jimin from the kitchen and Jungkook excitedly telling Joonie about the way he won his video game as Joonie, his inspiration and idol, nodded and smiled like an affectionate father. While, Tae was writing something down.

I ruffled Tae's hair and sat down beside him and peeped in. He was drawing cute cartoons all over the letter he has written for his parents.

As soon as we settled down, Joonie faced us all and started," We all need to discuss for our new album... I know that we already had our initial discussion with BangPd nim ... And this time again he said that he is ready to support whatever concept we are selecting... It's again in our hands now. So, based on what are we going to write our songs?"

"We must stand out from other groups, hyung!" Jiminie said scratching his neck.

"As if we are not standing out in almost everything we do!", Yoongi hyung said before any of us could respond.

"Hyung! I think Jimin hyung is correct! Almost all the idol groups have similar type of songs! Based on love or something that is totally abstract... how about we do something other than that??", our maknae , Jungkookie said.

It was then it clicked to me..." Joonie! Hyungs!! Kids!!!What if we transform our feelings into our music? ", I said.

"I don't get you, hyung!", Joonie said pouting...

"We have been through a lot! Stress, depression, failure, confusion, pain!! We, at one point of our life were, forced to do something that we did not want to do! Joonie remember you once told how your mother broke your music equipment so that you will concentrate on your studies and use that high IQ of yours to get a government job?", I said looking at him.

"You want to tell our story to the people as a song?", Yoongi hyung asked sitting up straighter.

"Yes hyung! Let us show the young kids out there that they are not alone in this huge race! We did not have anyone to support us or at least understand us ... Why can't we be the people who not only entertain but also support and encourage others?", I said with my eyes brimming with tears . I noticed Yoongi hyung's face go all red before he covered his face with his hands.