i wrack my brain and scold myself.
why didn't you tell her you liked him?
why didn't you put more effort into your relationship with him?
why did you screw this up, too?
why can't you just do what your parents want?
why do you have such massive trust issues?
i say she betrayed me
when in reality
i betrayed myself
she's my friend and she didn't know.
she should've known.
this is all my fault.
if only i texted first.
if only i could really flirt.
maybe we would've stayed together.
she killed me
and
she
didn't
know
it
.
