It's scary having what you want because one day you may wake up and it might be gone.
That small possibility will haunt you until the day it actually happens.
It's kills you with a slow and painful death where you have to try and catch up with the world moving so fast past you.
And then you're stuck behind a wall and there's no way over it so you just get stuck behind the world that goes on without you.
It's scary having what you want because you may feel that you don't deserve it.
Your image of yourself is so low that you feel that you don't deserve it.
And so you sit in front of that mirror and try to convince yourself that you do.
But those nights that you called yourself useless, worthless and ugly, when you verbally abused yourself, they will forever haunt you.
And leech onto all of the happiness in your life and drain it.
Thing is you can't blame anyone for it but yourself.
Because you will be the reason you lose everything you've ever wanted.
It's scary having what you want.
-starz.writes
