The day after she was nervous. She had rested, and caffeine was helping her. 'Good morning' Nick said, walking towards her. 'Good morning'. She took a sip from her mug. 'Since how have you been awake?' 'An hour' 'Tell me you have slept' 'I have slept, mom' ' Look at me'. She raised her head up, looking at him and waiting for something. 'So?' she asked, after a few seconds. 'Yes, you're fine. And sarcastic, too'. 'Eat something and prepare yourself. I don't wanna be late' 'Of course you don't.' He kissed her.
After a while Nick was ready. 'Let's go' Bishop said. 'Let's go' he said.
While Nick was parking the car, Ellie was thinking of what to say to Gibbs. She was moving her lips, crossing her fingers. 'Hey, it's gonna be ok' Nick said, still driving. 'Yes, I-I'm just a bit nervous.' 'I know you are, it's normal. The last time you were here...' 'When Hicks died' 'Yes. You'll kill it' he said, and then he leaned his hand on her shoulder.
When McGee heard the elevator, he turned towards it expecting to see Nick, but he wasn't alone. 'Bishop' 'Hi, Tim' she said, shyly. He got up, happy to see her. 'Are you coming back?' 'Maybe. I have to talk with Gibbs and Sloane' 'Yes, sure. It's gonna be okay'. She smiled, but her expression changed when she saw Gibbs arriving towards them. 'Bishop' 'Gibbs, I wanna come back' 'Ok, how you feel?' 'Good' 'Have you slept?' 'Yes'. Gibbs looked at her, in a similar way of Nick that morning. Bishop looked at him too, waiting for an answer. 'Go to Sloane. Talk. And if it'll be okay, you'll come back to work'. 'Ok, thanks' she quickly answered. And she immediately went towards the stairs.
Sloane was checking some files when Ellie knocked on the door. 'Yes'. Ellie shyly opened it, putting a foot beyond the threshold. 'Hey, Bishop' 'Hi, Jack. Can we talk?' 'Yes, of course. Have a sit'.
'I wanna back to NCIS' Ellie stated, sitting in front of her. 'Good. I suppose Gibbs wants you to talk with me' 'Yes'. 'Ok'. She gently smiled to her fellow agent, trying to make her feel comfortable. 'I learnt to manage myself. My emotions. And my actions' 'Good, it's a big step Ellie. And are you talking with someone? I mean, in these days, have you seen anyone of your friends?' 'Yeah. Nick and I went to McGee's house, at dinner' 'You and Nick?' 'Yes, he-he helped me' 'And have you talked with anyone of what you feel?' 'Well, in a certain way, yes' 'Explain me' 'I-I talked... about... you know... my pain...' but she struggled to talk. 'Ellie, relax. You're in a safe place' 'You told it, it will take time'. 'Yes, I did, and this is exactly the reason why you have to talk with somebody'. 'What if I not?' she asked, worried about the answer. 'Well, this thing inside you, it will grow up and it will hurt a lot.' 'It's-it's already hurt, Jack' she said, while her eyes were full of tears. 'I know, honey' 'It's-it's that everyone knows, and everyone wants to help me. And I appreciate it. But I would only want to come back to work. I'd want a normal life. I'd want to not had be raped!'. She had yelled. And when she noticed it, she leaned her back on the chair, lowering her head. She gathered her legs, not daring to look Jack. Sloane looked for her glance. Bishop started crying. She had finally said that word. 'Thanks' 'For what?' Jack asked. 'For made me open. I hadn't said that word till now. Thanks' 'You made the work. You have to thank yourself' 'I know that it happened, but I can go on with my life' 'Yes, you can' 'I eat, I sleep, well, a few hours, and I-I don't throw up anymore'. She was very proud of herself, and Jack noticed it. She held her hand. 'I'm so sorry you suffered so much' 'I'm still suffering, but I can brave it' 'I know you can. We all believe in you, Ellie. I'd-I'd want to do more' 'No, you-you don't have to'. 'I think you're ready' 'What?' 'You're ready for work. You'll must pay attention to your feelings, but you're ready, Ellie. I'll talk with Gibbs'. Ellie smiled, looking for the right words to say. But she couldn't find them. So she stood up and hugged Jack.
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Keep Your Friends Close - What If
FanfictionShe was in that dark room, while Gibbs was in another side of the house. She had only a few seconds to see in the mirror that someone else was with her. He grabbed her, covering her mouth with an hand, they fought, and this is what she remembered.
