The Vamps imagines & one shots

one shot// "are you awake...?"--Connor

I was sitting on our living room couch, watching Netflix when I heard Connor come into the house. I turned around to greet him and ask him about his day, but he was on his way upstairs before I even got the chance to say one word to him. "Hey!" I yelled out.

He looked down at me from his position on the stairs with a look of confusion as to why I was yelling at him. "You're not gonna say hi to me? I haven't seen you all day!" I asked.

He shrugged his shoulders, "Hi, sorry, I just want to take a shower and get changed, okay?" he said, continuing up the stairs.

Over the past two weeks, it has seemed like Connor and I were becoming more and more distant. He would be gone with the boys for most of the day, working with the boys, and when he came home, he would barely talk to me. Our relationship seems to have fizzled out, and it's come to the point where I can't ignore the silence anymore. I sat and waited for his shower to be finished. As I did so, all of my emotions continued to bottle up inside of me and once I heard the shower turn off, I was quickly on my feet and up the stairs.

I opened the door to our bedroom as he was in the midst of putting on a pair of joggers. "What?" he exclaimed, surprised that I had barged in. 

"Why are you ignoring me?" I asked, standing in the doorway.

"What do you mean? I haven't been," he said, drying his hair with his towel.

"Yeah, alright, so you think that you barely talking to me over the span of like three days wouldn't be considered ignoring?"

"I've talked to you, what are you on about? I talked to you when I walked in today, remember?" he said.

"Yeah, that was after I pointed it out. That doesn't count." I said, rolling my eyes at him. "It seems like you don't even care enough about us anymore. You don't put any effort into us, not even into just communicating with me. I hate the silence, Con." 

"I do care about us! I really don't understand what the problem is! Sorry that I'm busy working? Sorry, our band has become more successful lately? I don't know what you want me to do, I'm doing all I can." he said, throwing his hands up.

"I know you're busy, and I'm happy that you and the boys are doing well. You know I'm always happy for you guys. But you come home late every night and barely say two fucking words to me and I don't want to feel lonely like that all the fucking time! You know I don't really have anyone at work that I get along well with, so I'm basically stuck with myself all day, every day." I sighed. "I would expect to at least be able to enjoy my time with my boyfriend when he comes home at night like every other girl my age does." 

"Well, not every other girl your age is dating someone in a band! I don't know what you can expect from me, I'm fucking busy!" he yelled.

I hated it when he yelled. It terrified me. Connor tends to keep a level head, he's a calm person. But when he gets mad, he gets mad. "I didn't know that our relationship would revolve around you and how you feel all the time! God, it's a fucking relationship for a reason. It's between two people, you can't make everything about you!" he yelled, his face red because he didn't take a breath.

"Exactly, TWO people. It's a connection between two people and all I see in our "relationship" is a connection between you and your music, and me and fucking Netflix!" I exclaimed, unable to contain my anger.

"You're such a fucking child, I can't even talk to you anymore," he mumbled to himself, picking up his stuff off of the ground.

 "You barely fucking started!" I yelled, making my point. 

He grabbed a blanket from the closet and made his way towards the door, "I'm sleeping on the couch," he said before leaving the room and heading downstairs. I slammed the bedroom door behind me and felt tears begin to form. I walked around the room, my hands on top of my head, and let my tears fall. 

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After letting my thoughts run through my head, and trying to get the recent events off of my mind, I figured it would be best if I just went to bed and dealt with it within the next day. When I tried to fall asleep though, I wasn't able to keep my eyes closed and stay asleep. I laid there, deep in my own thoughts once again, but I was pulled out of them when I heard the door squeak open and a ray of light broke through the darkness of the room.

"Are you awake?" I heard Connor whisper from the doorway.

"If you want me to be..." I whispered. I stayed laying in my same position until I felt the other side of the bed dip down, and the bedside light was turned on, lighting up the entire room now.

I felt him rest his hand on top of my arm, "I do want you to be, I need to talk to you."

I didn't even bother responding with something wise, I just turned over and listened to what he had to say.

"Listen, I'm sorry about earlier. I didn't mean the stuff I said, I didn't want to upset you. I never wanted to make you cry," he said as he looked down at my tear stained cheeks. "I didn't know how little I was putting into our relationship, and I'm sorry for that baby. I have been busy though, and that's why I wasn't in the right mindset to notice how my actions really impacted you. I'm really sorry." 

I sat up and looked straight at him now, "I hate fighting with you, you know that right?"

"Of course, I feel the same way," he said, nodding.

I placed my hand on his knee, "I'm sorry for yelling earlier, I just needed to get my feelings out. I know that you're busy, I understand. I'm happy for you and the boys. I just miss having you around." I said sadly.

"I know, I miss you too, and I promise to make more time for us, okay?" he said with a smile.

I nodded before he wrapped his arms around me and embraced me in a hug. 

"So will you sleep with me tonight then?" I asked him innocently.

He smiled at me, "Of course, I hate the couch anyways." he laughed.

We both slid under the covers, turned off the bedside light, and I felt him wrap his arms around me from behind. I turned my head and kissed him lightly on the lips before I was finally able to fall asleep.