8/12/17
I could say a lot to you
But it won't mean a thing
I could expose the worst of you
But it won't do a thing
Such a shame
I wonder if you know how it feels from the other side
I wonder if you know how it feels knowing that you lied
I feel the sting, the burning hole inside,
Where you knocked me down
And tore me from the inside out
My heart used to beat loud as a drum,
Now because of you it's barely a hum
You don't realize everything you took from me,
You stripped me of my sanity
Self-esteem and confidence are unnatural now to me
It's all because of you,
You're the reason that I cry out in the night
You're the reason that I have anxiety
You're the reason I have had depression all my life
You're the reason that in my darkest moments I wish that I could die!
That is one thing you can not deny.
Deny me love,
Deny me anything you want.
Deny me every material thing
That you "can't afford"
Deny me the words I want to hear
Deny me the truth.
But do not tell me, it was not all because of you.
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He was such an ass when I confronted him about my depression and anxiety. Like.. when you find out your child has been struggling with mental illnesses for over six years you don't just say bullshit when they say that they wanted to run away as a child because of how mentally abusive you were. And he freaking was. Mentally abusive.
-Raene-
