5/15/18
I can't look in the mirror,
The girl I see
Isn't me
I can't look out to the water,
I'm petrified that I'll drown
I can't look up to the sky,
Too scared to try
And fly
I can't look at my friends,
When all they say is that I worry them
I worry them...
Am I really that helpless?
Am I really that down?
When I can't sleep at night,
I wish they were around.
Tossing and turning
Hating my being
I keep on reliving
Dreaming
Can I see you once again?
Even if it's just pretend?
I wish it were you.
Coming into my room.
I'm still crying over you
I'm still dying over you
Inside,
Is one place I can't hide.
Outside.
I lie.
I'm not very good at it, I guess.
