「Anime x Reader One Shots」

Restricted Love (Nobuchika Ginoza x Reader)

"There's a weird pleasure in loving someone who doesn't love you."

He had his eye on you since the day you joined Division 1.

You were different than the other Enforcers in more ways than one. Despite being damned by the very same system you strived to protect, you harbored no animosity for it. If Ginoza didn't know any better, he would've thought that you were no different than any other citizen; someone with a low crime coefficient worthy of living a peaceful life.

There was this spark of life in you that he couldn't quite seem to get over. As strong as the other Enforcers (and even Inspectors) tried to appear, they were damaged and broken in multiple ways. None of them, not even Ginoza, were capable of being repaired at that point, but just seeing the life still present in you was enough to make his pain fade away, even if only momentarily.

He loved the way you would smile at him. Even when he was doing his job by scolding you after one of your many reckless actions, your smile would never waver. Your never-ending wave of happiness was somewhat alarming to him, especially during dangerous situations, yet he would never ask for anything different. Ginoza never wanted to see that smile fade away.

Months passed by until he finally acknowledged what hidden feelings he truly harbored for you, but he never got the opportunity to act on them. By this time, you had grown far closer to Kogami and Kagari. And why shouldn't you? After all, they were the two people you spent the most time with. Every night when Ginoza went home after a day's work, you were forced to stay at the Bureau because of that damned system.

His heart ached whenever he saw you laughing with the others, revealing to them that smile he adored so much. In all of his life, he never felt himself pining for someone as much as he did for you but deep down, he knew it could never be.

Despite how much he wanted to, he could never take you out on a date nor could he ever bring you home with him. The Bureau was your ball and chain; something he would never be able to free you from. It was your prison that prevented you from indulging in any luxuries, took away your most basic human rights including the right to love.

The Sibyl System ruined your life over something as simple as having a delicate mind.

As much as he wanted to, Ginoza still couldn't bring himself to despise the very system that stole so much from him. In the end, he knew that even if all of your rights were readily available to you, that he still would never have a chance.

Never was it destined for you to fall in love with Ginoza.