Fake (Luke Hemmings)

Chapter Twenty Six ~ Amnesia ~

Chapter Twenty Six ~ Amnesia  ~

*Elena POV*

 

As I layed in Luke’s arms I could feel an aura around me that was negative. I knew that it was coming from Luke. He held me like I wanted him to but I felt like he was forcing himself to do it. I sit up and he does too. I fake a smile and walk out of the room and go into the living room where Harry was getting ready to leave. Hugging him and telling him safe travels Luke comes in the room.  He bids Harry goodbye and then he left back to his room. Once Harry left I felt strange with just Luke here. Going into Luke’s room I see him laying on his bed looking up at the ceiling. Walking out of the room once again I sit on the floor and light up a cigarette.  I lean the back on my lead against the wall behind me and I sigh. Luke and I weren’t alright with each other. I guess I use to feel something for him. But something changed between us. He wasn’t the same person that I met a month ago. Or at least I think it was a month ago. I don’t even know myself.

I was sitting on the floor for the longest time before Luke came out and sat next to me. I look at him and we both just smoke a cigarette. After we finish half a pack we both realised that we may die of lung cancer we started to eat. I couldn’t get anything down my throat and I go out to the front porch and sit down. Luke sits down next to me and I let out a shaky breath. Luke puts his hands on his face and lets out a groan. He look back up at me and I sigh.

“It won’t work out will it?” I ask and he shakes his head.

“I want it to Elena. But you’re not the girl I was hoping for.” I look at him and sigh. That’s when Luke told me about the dream he had of me. The dream he had much, much before he even knew who I was.

“I can’t be that girl Luke. I’m so sorry.”

“I can’t do this Elena.”

“I know.” We both look away and I look at the passing cars.

 

Makeup ran down my face as I ran through the airport. Harry called my name but I kept running. I needed to get to Luke before he got on the plane. People look at me like I’m crazy but I keep running to him. Reaching the line I see that there was no longer a line. I ask the lady if the plane took off to Australia and she nods her head sadly. I walk over to the window and Harry hugs me. He’s gone. Luke is gone.

 

Walking into cold flat I sit down on the floor and hug my knees to my chest. I knew it sounded stupid and sad but I missed Luke. It’s been five months. I’m kinda lame if I think about hard enough. But he was happy now. He was with someone else that made him happy. He was fine but I wasn’t fine at all. Everything dream he had he left here and he forgot about everything about us. Or the us he wanted. Laying down on the hardwood floor I close my eyes and wish I could forget everything. Amnesia style. The next day I go to Harry’s apartment to meet his new girlfriend and hang out with some other friends. Walking into the apartment I hear a name that was strange to hear.

“Luke, can you see who is at the door!” A females voice yells and I stop my tracks. Luke looks at me and I look down at my feet. Harry hugs me and I give the wine I brought. We all walk to the kitchen and Luke’s new girlfriend was there. She smiles at me and I smile back. Sitting on the couch in the living room I watch Luke and his girlfriend Jackie makeout on the couch and Harry with his girlfriend Emma. I stand up and everyone looks at me. I mumble a quick goodbye and try to get out of the house as fast as I could.

“Fuck!” I put on my coat and slam the door. Running down the street I stop at a lamp post and tears run down my face. I try to look in my pocket for my cigarette and see that I left them at Harry’s apartment.

 

Walking back to Harry’s apartment I knock on the door and Emma answers the door. I push past her and she yells at me. I flip her off and Harry walks in. I look everywhere for the fucking pack and I started to panic. Harry sits me down but my hands start to shake. My breathing starts to quicken and I start to sob.

“Can’t be here. I can’t be here.” I stand up and walk out of the apartment.

“Elena!” I turn around to see Luke running after me. It was snowing and the idiot wasn’t wearing a jacket. I start to walk away and tears run down my face. Luke grasp my arm and I wince. I push his arm away from me and start to walk away. “Why are you running away from me!” Luke yells as I keep walking away. Luke walks with me and more tears run down my face. The tears were blinding my vision and I fell to my knees. Collapsing in the snow I start to cry even harder. “Elena why are you crying?” Luke asks kneeling down to help me stand to my feet.

“Because it hurts! It hurts to see you like this!”

“See me like what? What are you panicking about Elena?”

“To see you in love with someone else! It hurts because I still love you!” Luke looks at me shocked and I start to panic. “Fuck!” I yell as I stand up and start to walk away. Luke runs for me and I stop him. “No, go back Luke. I’m letting you go. I need to let you go.” I start walking away again and I turn around to see Luke standing there looking at me with his own tears in his eyes.

 

Reaching the liquor store I buy a bottle of vodka and drink away my pain. As I reached my apartment Luke was there sitting on the doorsteps of my apartment. I bring the bottle to my lips and look at him. He stands up and I stumble to my door. Luke follows me in but I try to push him out of the door. Instead he just hugs me while I cry and try to push him out. Giving up I look up at him and he looks down at me. He pushes my hair out of my face and I bring my body closer to him so that I could feel safe for once.

 

I wake up the next morning to Luke holding my hand. I was laying on the couch while he was on the floor sitting, holding my hand in his and he was asleep. What the fuck he could have just slept on the bed. I shake him gently awake and he looks at me. He smiles and kisses my forehead. I sit up and he sits next to me.

“Can you explain to me why I found six bottles of antidepressants in your bathroom?” Luke says and I shrug. “Elena this isn’t you. What’s wrong?”

“One is for depression, another is for anxiety, and the rest are for ammonia and my panic attacks.”  Luke looks into my eyes and you could see how worried he was.

“Did you mean it when you told me last night that you are letting me go.”

“I don’t know Luke.” I sigh and Luke holds my two hands in his.

“Elena, tell me right here and right now. I want you to want me to stay and I need you to need me. But if you don’t know then let me go. And if you do let me go then I’m not looking back. I’m gone.” I sigh and tears run down my face. “Answer me Elena.” I look away from Luke and pull my hands away from his.

“Goodbye Luke.” I stand up and lead him to the door. He looks down at me and cups my face in his hands.

“Are you sure Elena?”

“No, but you need someone who isn’t as fucked up as me Luke.” He leans down and out lips touch. Luke’s hands move down to my hips and he pulls me closer to him. I wrap my arms around him and try to not ruin the moment with my stupid words. Luke slams the door with his foot and he lifts me up. Wrapping my legs around his torso, he starts to walk to my bedroom. He lays me down and start to undress myself. Luke kisses my neck down to my hipbones. Soon we were only in our undergarments and almost in the moment of passion.

“Luke we s-” Luke puts his index finger on my lips and shushes me.

“Don’t ruin the moment El.”

Short but you guys I have to say sorry. Sorry to tell you guys that there are only four more chapters left to this book! I know it's sad but the last four chapters I will try to make perfect. Next Chapter is called More Than This. Haha hear the song and you guys can guess what will happen. Picture of what I picture Luke and Elena doing when they were on the porch outside. Love you guys! Vote/Comment.