Forever Alone

New Start, New Feelings

*Esme* 

We got home after Gabby picked me up from work and told me the news, that she has a job! Woohoo! I really thought that she would get a job from Mr. Dalton, but then again it has only been two days since she's been to the interview, and this Collins interview was some time ago. Im upstairs cleaning my room up and mentally deciding what I'll throw away or keep, so that i'm ready to move out of here. 

After an hour or so, i rearranged my whole room. The things im going to throw away I kept in my closet, in a couple of boxes. Everything  else is the same but it feels, new. I walk out of my room into Gabby's and find that her whole room is a mess, clothes everywhere, books all over the floor, underwears on the door handle. I laugh out loud and she looks up from her laptop, "What's so funny??" I smirk, "Well the fact that there are underwears on the door handle, and that you haven't cleaned your room at all." "Well I've been busy trying to get myself mentally prepared for tomorrow." "I thought you were going to start in a couple of days?" "Nope! Livia emailed me and said that if i could possibly start tomorrow because there is a huge budget meeting in three days, so she wants me to start working asap." "Well thats great! What time do you start?" "I go in around the time you start school." I frown," Damn. Do you want to take the Mini? I can take the bus, and you can just pick me up after work?" "Oh please! I'll pick you up straight after work, and we'll go out to eat as a celebration." "Awesome!!" I hug her and walk out and go downstairs, and im greeted by my mother.

"Well have you done anything at all for a job?" "Mom I have a job at the day care center." "They don't pay you enough to rent a place Esmeralda. You're going to have to start looking for a new job." "Are you kidding? Mom I'm 90% almost done paying the Mini, after that it will be mine, and everything else will be perfectly fine. My job pays well, not good but well enough. Gabby just got a job, and we'll be out of here sooner than expected so." She smirks and laughs, "Well i certainly hope you guys will be able to find a place to rent, oh! And give a down payment as well. Two months are almost up." I gape at her, "Are you telling me that you are actually going to kick us out in exactly two months?" "No, less than two months. This is how the real world works, sweet heart and if you don't like it, then tough." It was like a slap to the face. She walks away smirking and heads upstairs. I walk into the kitchen, grab a cup of juice and head upstairs. I walk into my room, slam the door and plop down on my bed. Should I really quit my job to find a better paying one? Then that would mean leaving behind my co workers, the kids, and maybe even school. Nope. I'm not doing it, I'm not letting her tell me what to do, all things will work out and everything will be fine for me and Gabby. 

I turn on my stereo and put the Thompson Twins, "Hold Me Now" seems like a good song to listen to right now. I lay down in the dark thinking about what the future has instore for me. I'm singing to the song, and slowly i fall asleep.

**I'm outside sitting under the willow tree with Mikael. He looks at me and smiles, "Do you know how beautiful you are?" I gasp and blush, "Ummm, I uhhh. Thank you." I smile and he smiles showing his lovely dimple, and he slowly starts leaning into me, and I don't know how to react. I'm sitting here still as stone, and he kisses me. Slowly at first and then starts to move, he wraps his arm around my waist and picks me up and sits me on his lap. I gasp and wrap my arms around his neck, his arms are wrapped tight around my waist. He stops kissing me and looks at me, I look at him and give a small smile. Then he again starts kissing me and we're there kissing passionately under the tree. **

I wake up and look around at the clock, its 3 a.m. *sigh* I'm falling hard for this guy. I get up, go into the bathroom, and wash my face. I head back and go into Gabby's room. She's asleep and I decide not to wake her up, I'll just tell her in the morning.