In hiding ( sons of anarchy)

Chapter 18

We all gathered at teller morrow waiting for Jax to return home. I just hate to feel responsible for him being in jail. definitely when lately I can feel the tension between the club and me I honestly don't know why?

"He's fine" gemma said walking up beside me. she put her arm around my neck. I smiled up at her.

"What makes you think I'm worried" I asked smirking.

"I see the way you guys are, I'm pretty sure to Jax your not just some crow eater"

I smiled, I loved the thought of that and it coming from gemma. it just mayde me. Feel more confident. but my feelings I'm letting them get In The way and I can't. I have to remember for me to be free I have to finish this. I never new them before this. there nothing.

As I finished my thought Jax rolled up on his bike and parked it. everyone but me and gemma slowly walked over to Jax to greet him and welcome him back home. i watched him he looked occupied he was... lookin for someone. gemma took her arm off me as Jax spotted me his whole face lit up. he walked over to me with the smile.

Don't get attached

Don't get attached

He hugged gemma and walked over To me before either of us could say a word he crashed his lips on mine. the kisses was like nothing I have felt before. it was peaceful but at the same time there were little sparks that maid it exciting. that's when I remembered ATTACHED.

"Well hello" I said braking the kiss.

"Hey" he said smiling.

" I have to talk to you later, about this "he continued as he grabbed my hand.

I blushed. oops

"Everyone to chapel" I Hurd clay yell.

Jax pecked my lips then followed the guys in to the clubhouse.

"Sooo" gemma said coming up behind me

"Yeah, yeah don't start" I said walking to the club house.

A FEW HOURS LATER

"I guess we should talk know" Jax said kissing my neck.

I moaned and then sat up in bed. yeah, we just finished having incredible sex. I giggled to myself.

"Yeah, what did you want to say" I asked he stopped and looked up

"I didn't spend a lot of time in jail but jail dose get you thinking about things and all I could think about was you, I didn't want that to be the last time I saw you, I rarely develop feelings this fast for someone but I can't stand you, that's why I kissed you so intently. I want to be with you Marissa and not as just a fling. "

I blushed. I took that to heart as hard as it was. but I can't this all this it's not right. but to get to where I need to I need to put a smile on my face and fake it till I make it. but clay,. can't be scared of him he would never harm me. would he?

"I want to be with you to jax" he smiled And kissed me.

When opportunity comes knocking you have to take it. Jax is vulnerable right know.

"But" I stopped the kiss " if we are going to do this then it's all out you have to tell me everything Jax, I don't want you to tell me parts because you think I can't handle it, well I can please... don't hold back it's not safe" i said putting my hand on his cheek.

"Ok" Jax said "if that's what you want, I just...." he continued

"What" I asked

He paused " I don't want you to run scared.. I don't want to lose you"

"Trust me you won't, I promise" I smiled. make it real, fall of it

I kissed him. And gulped

" I also wanted to thank you for bailing me out " Jax said

"Oh you know about that" I asked.

"Yeah, since when dose a girl like you have that kinda money" he asked.

I looked away

"Never mind about that. what are you going to do with stahl" I asked changing the subject.

"Get rid of her" Jax said pulling his legs to the side of the bed getting dressed.

I sat up "what do you mean get rid of her" I asked "like kill her"

"Well yeah after I talk to her" he said. shit.

" Why would you talk to her" I asked.

"Clay said that she's coming after the club, that she has some mast plan to take us all down. I want to know who or what it is. " he said standing up I looked the opposite way.

SHIT..