In hiding ( sons of anarchy)

Chapter 19

It's not like me to worry... K yeah I worry about stuff but stahl would never throw me under the bus definitely when it would ruin her operation.

I sat up Quitely and looked around.

So yes I ended up staying over at the club house.... with Jax ..... in his bed. getting attached was not what I intended but something about being in his arms makes me feels safe, secure something I haven't felt in a while.

I Quitely got out of the bed and pulled on my underware and bra. I looked all around the room and couldn't find my pants...

Shit

Ah found them I giggled, they where under the bed. I grabbed my heels and Quitely opened the door and escaped through the hallway. not looking behind me to see if Jax had awaken or not. I grabbed my purse of the barstool as I walked by. there was absulotly no one around I left the building and went strait for my car. I flipped the key and glanced at the time.

11:36 am ...

Shit I'm late!

I backed out of the parking space and headed to cara cara

AT CARA CARA FEW HOURS LATER

" So what's your deal with Jax" lyla asked coming up behind me. I flinched

"Shit girl you scared me" I said turning to face her. I adjusted my robe

She lifted her eyebrows

"Nothing is going on....." I said looking at my feet

"Last thing I Hurd was you fell in bed with him last night? true?" she asked.

"Well yes..." I said lyla squealed

"Shhh' I said shushing her. "it's no big deal"

" No big deal... you guys are hot.. not tempeture hot but like... your vib your either at each others throats or your cute and cuddly" lyla explained

"You two in bed was bound to happen, did he like....say anything like about jail and stuff" she asked as we faced the running scene.

"CUT" we Hurd

"Not really just that he was thinking" I lied

"About what" she asked

"Us" I said quietly

"Wait... what do you mean " she asked

"He wants to make it work like.... relationship work" I said cringing

"Wow" she answered

"I know right we barely know each other... " iI said which is true I was holding to much to have a relationship of any kind with him.

"Well get to know each other" she said

"I don't know lyla.... I just"

" Marissa I barely know you, your a great person as far as I know. and what I do know is if you want something pursue it DONT leave it hanging because eventually it will fall and you won't get it back... what ever is in your way ... deal with it before its to late" she said as she left to go do her shoot.

Lyla was right.... but would she say that if she new what was really going on. this sucked more then ever... all these feelings and problems I can't talk to anyone about them and I feel like I'm going to blow up.... I just want to pull my hair out.

My heart says that Jax is good for me, he'll keep me happy and most of all safe... something I would love to feel right know.

But

My head says stick to the plan don't get attached, it will be worth it in the end....

But will it.. be worth it

Ill live in a beautiful house and maybe start a family with someone I love.

Eventually

But is that what I really want?

CLAY POV

Marissa being the reason my club is going down... it can't happen I won't let it.

As I walked through her kitchen and turned the light on I saw them sitting on the table.

The file

,

If I had this I had her.. she wouldn't want this getting out to the club. that's she's the one trying to take us Down. shell be deviated.

I smiled

Her life is basically right here in my hands!