8th Member [lee chaewon]✔️

Issues°

Today you felt so drowned and down. It's probably all the stress, but isn't that what you say all the time. You blame everything on your own stress

*sigh*

You sat up straight from your bed and thought about leaving bangtan. You then shrugged the thought off and started to do your morning routine

(Your outfit)

You looked outside your window and saw Yoongi waiting outside the car with our manager. They're probably waiting for me

You walked out the door and went inside the car. You plugged in your earphones and played some tunes on your phone.

'I'm so tired and drained'

You guys arrived at the company and headed straight to the dance practice room with a big bottle of water that your manager gave you in the car a couple of minutes ago

You went in and immediately got told off by Namjoon for being almost an hour late.

Stumble

Stumble

Stumble

You tripped, tripped and tripped all over again while being scolded by Namjoon, Hoseok and the dance instructor. After the practice was finished you stayed behind while the boys went back to the dorm

You practiced and practiced until your body gave out. You drank the half empty bottle before walking back home, which was a 16 minute walk so you could have time to think

Unconsciously tears flowed out your eyes, you felt like cutting yourself. You didn't know why you were like this, you hadn't seen hate comments for the past month

It was probably because of your step-sister. She came a few weeks ago and bashed hate out on you. Saying:

"You? I don't even know how you got scouted"

"You just an untalented slut who seeks attention. The thing she never had"

"You are just as fat as your dead mom"

"You couldn't just die with your mom, could you?"

It hurt you so much. The mental bullying was already enough but she had to add in the physical bullying

The bruises on your arms, chest and legs hurt so much.

You finally arrived at the dorm and ignored the boys who were playing and laughing loudly.

You locked your room and went to your bathroom and locked the door there as well, you searched every cabinet for a razor, some sleeping pills and some random pills

Aha

You set the things on the sink and looked at yourself on the mirror.

Ugliness

Unperfection

Flaws

A mistake

You picked up the razor and cut through your wrist. You hadn't done this until 2 years ago, it was an addiction. I was so insecure that I started to starve myself and weighed 42

I felt a slight sting but I shrugged the feeling off and then started to cut 3 more lines before taking both bottle of pills and took 5 from each bottle and swallowed it

After standing there waiting for something to happen you started getting nauseous. You walked out the bathroom and the to your closet and put on a black oversized hoodie with some sweatpants, then walked out your room

It was dark. Great all of them are asleep, you headed to the living room and sat there staring into a blank space.

"Chae?" Someone said from behind you. You turned around and saw.....Yoongi?

"Oh" you said

"I'm gonna go" you started to walk away but he held your wrist, the wrist you had cut.

"Ahh" you screamed in pain. The blood oozed out

You thanked yourself for wearing a black hoodie instead of white or bright colors.

"What happened" the clueless boy asked with worry. You shook head no and started to walk away again but he held your wrist tighter making your scream louder, probably waking up the boys

"Stop" you cried. The hot warm tears you hated so much started falling out. It all reminded you of when your sister held your wrist that you cut tighter than ever

She was a monster in my eyes at least

The boys came out of their room and walked to where Yoongi and I were.

"Stop" you chanted while crying. It wasn't because It hurt but because the traumatizing moment you 'sister' gave you, well it did hurt too but not as much

Parts of the memory ran through your head.

"Yoongi!!" Jin pulled my away from Yoongi and hugged me. While Hoseok and Namjoon held Yoongi

"Yoongi you're stressed" Namjoon said while holding down the stressed boy along with Hoseok

"Sorry" yoongi said plainly then left.

"Are you ok" You nodded at the question Jin was asking.

"Lemme see" he pulled up your sleeve seeing all you cuts and bruises including the mark(got7) that yoongi left

"What Happened" He said almost screaming, you shook your head with a smile

"I'm fine, don't worry" you slowly pushed his hand off your arm but he insisted on taking care of your bruises

He shooed away the boys and walked me to the shared bathroom. "Don't ever do that again" he warned me while treating my wounds

"Fine" he smiled and let you off after treating you. You went to Yoongi's room and saw him sleeping sound asleep, so you turned around and took your leave but he called you

"Wait" yoongi said with a groggy and low tone, "I'm sorry" you walked to him and laid next to him

"It's fine" he showed you a gummy smile then drifted to sleep.

You chuckled and went off to dreamland too

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