I know I promised,
I promised to stop.
I told you never again,
And I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to break my promise,
I meant it when I told you.
But now...
I just can't keep going like this.
The pain inside,
It consumes everything.
It's paralyzing,
I can't do it anymore.
The blade against my skin
Sends flair a of pain,
And for a brief second I forget.
I forget everything else except that pain.
When people ask me why,
Why someone would do that,
I answer simply.
Because it's easier than to face it all.
I'm sorry that I couldn't stop,
When I told you that, I thought that,
That things were getting better.
And they were.
But life sucks.
That's just the way it is.
And instead of facing it,
I'd rather hide behind that razor blade.
I'd rather hide behind the pain.
Because for one brief second,
I forget everything else.
That's why I couldn't keep my promise.
