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[24] Sleeping All Day, Crying All Night | draft two

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[24] - Sleeping All Day, Crying All Night

C h a r l o t t e

After reading the post its, I pulled one of Niall's shirts from the closet and slid it over my body. I kind of wish I saw the post its when he wanted me to , but I cant really unsee them now.

I crawled under the white blankets, snuggling into the bed. The bed still smelled the same, like vanilla, mint, and smoke from cigarettes. I hated that he smoked , but the smoke mixed with mint and vanilla actually smelt decent .

I put the teddy under my arm, snuggling with that. The bear was soft , just like Nialls hair .

It seemed as if everything reminded me of him , every move I made I thought of him , every little item I see reminds me of him .

It felt like Niall was here.
Only he wasn't.
I really wish he was though.

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I woke up the next day around seven at night.

No one came to bother me, nor did anyone come to check up on me. Which was a good thing, because i don't know what i would've said or done and i really don't want to come off as a bitch to them . They're trying . They're in as much pain as I am .

I sat up in the bed, looking at the wall again.

It just brought tears to my eyes.

This time, I let them fall. There was no point in keeping the tears bottled up inside of myself forever.

I brought my knees to my chest, resting my chin on them, my hair falling in my face, covering my vision.

It's okay to break down

So I did.

I sat there for hours and hours and just cried. I cried until I had no tears left to cry.

Niall was the only reason I was crying in the first place.

I missed his touch, his cuddles, his hair, his eyes, I missed everything about him and so much more.

I never knew that I'd be this tore up over a boy. I mean sure I knew I would cry a little, everyone does over another person. but I never thought I'd be like this.

I knew that somewhere in my mind that he was going to be okay.

He has to be okay.

N o t e

ITS BEEN SO FUCKING LONG SINCE IVE UPDATED THIS !!!
but I'm gonna finish draft two of this , because i just read everything over and it's cringey lmao .