Psych.

Owtfdwit.

The art of creating a fresh beginning.
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I felt my world closing in. Truly closing in. Falling asleep was and occasionally still is an exhausting process. Waking up made me dread every breath. In the echo of my sister, I was already dead.
Throwing myself into new things and triggering my fight or flight response is a new high that I have gotten addicted to. I knew it was always there, but now I was actively searching for it. Stretching for new opportunity and things unknown. I feel immense greed in bettering myself.
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I was in a new place now. The air wasn't quite clear and there was way more of a population than i'd enjoy. But it wasn't entirely bad. I had family around me and new friends. I wandered around my new area in broad daylight. The sun was intense. Desert sun. The burn was both suffocating and comforting. I had felt cold for so long. I noticed smiles again and unique mannerisms of the public as they went about their day.
I have always loved coffee shop atmospheres. Lucky for me, this place happened to be littered with the little treasures.
There was one that always peaked my interest. With it's hipster like vibe, it drew me in one morning. The barista was a handsome young man with dark curly hair and a shy smile. He was very polite as he took my order; iced tea and a strawberry tart.
I sat outside the shop, it was strangely peaceful, despite being in a waking city.
I noticed something. I was alone, but I wasn't uncomfortable. I always thought that eating alone was something negative, but I was actually enjoying it. I felt a bit refreshed. And the fact that I could dive back into my sketchbook was incredibly satisfying. Drawing was always a wonderful outlet for me, it allowed me to scrawl my emotions down and face them head on. It was a liberating talent of mine that I appreciated down to the smallest detail. And I hoped to share that outlet with someone else eventually. Perhaps I already was. A small ripple simply by showcasing my art and inspiring others to learn and create.