Psych.

Biology.

Biology is the study of life down to the smallest unit. It's the appreciation of details and form. The way things link together to work and grow.
It's a series of questions. Why does this happen? Why does it work? What caused it? The everlasting curiosity and thirst for answers that we may never have. Some things just can't be explained in this moment in time. And that is okay. If your efforts don't pay off now, maybe there needs to be a change in the way you do it or it simply isn't the right time. Take fruit for example, there is a specific time when it is ripe. Try enjoying an avocado before it's time or even after it's time. Kinda terrible, right? Might just upset your stomach or taste like shit. Situations can be like that. There are times when urgency is amazing and then there are times when you need to sit down and enjoy the wait. If you rush, you won't get what you want.
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I found my self stuck between a rock and a hard place. How to control raw anger when the choices given are not enough? The point is just letting it run it's course and when it gets tired, bring it back in. Love and nurture it. Sometimes that means just nurturing yourself. But you have to want to do that. If not, then you're stuck. You could try your hardest, but you have to truly want it. It may not be natural for you to want change. It may not be natural for you to seek something else. The point is to try new things and observe the outcome. I tried just that. But the timing was off and nothing was ready. There is only so much you can do in a situation and sometimes just laying in the grass and watching the clouds is a great way of living in that moment.
Although, I can't really do that in this moment. In this city. The sun would burn my skin and dry me out like a raisin. Gotta love the desert.
It's time to go home.