It's a little after 3am when she falls back onto the bed with her phone pressed against her ear. Her heart aches slightly as she takes a deep breath and sighs.
'Tell me you love me...' She almost whispers.
'Dems, I-' He begins as she shakes her head despite the fact that he can't even see her. She can feel the tears streaming down her cheeks as she leans her head back against the pillows.
'Nick, please.' She says quietly. She bites her bottom lip as she hears him sigh.
'I love you so much, Demi. Love has never been our issue, has it?' He replies.
'Does she make you happy?' She asks hearing him take a deep breath.
'Demi, we don't have to do this.' He says.
'I need to know, Nick. Does Priyanka make you happy? Do you love her?' She asks.
'I think I might.' He admits after a few moments of silence. She takes a deep breath and uses her free hand to quickly wipe her cheeks.
'Then that's enough for me. I want you to be happy and if she makes you happy then that's good enough for me.' She says softly.
'I don't want to hurt you.' He replies.
'I know. I think if things were different, if the situation was different then maybe we could've actually have been happy together. Maybe we could've made this work and everything would've been okay. Sometimes I wonder if we'd just admitted how we felt earlier then maybe things might have been different for us.' She admits.
'Mmm...' He mumbles.
'Be with Priyanka. Be happy, Nick.' She says.
'What about you?' He asks quietly.
'I'll be fine. I just- I can't be around you and not be with you, Nick. I can't see you be with her when I so badly wish that could've been me. Maybe in time I'll get to a place where I can be around you without feeling like my heart is breaking but until then I can't be in your life and I can't have you in mine...' She admits.
'No. I can't lose you, Demi. I won't let that happen.' He says causing her to sigh.
'You don't get a choice, Nick. I can't do this, okay? I can't look your new girlfriend in the face and act like I'm not completely and utterly in love with you. I can't fucking do that okay? It's not fair of you to ask me to do that.' She replies.
'I didn't realise it would be this hard for you.' He almost whispers.
'I look at pictures of you with Priyanka and no matter how happy I am for you, my heart aches. I love you more than I have ever loved anyone and I think I've loved you for a long time, Nick. I think I spent so long denying how I felt, acting like I didn't feel that way because I was scared. I was scared that you wouldn't feel the same. When you told me you felt the same I literally felt like I could fly, I felt like the luckiest girl in the world.' She says.
'I wish I could've made it work.' He replies.
'There was nothing you could've done, Nick. We tried, we really fucking tried and it just- It wasn't working. Priyanka seems like a lovely person, she seems good for you. She makes you smile and that's all I've ever wanted for you. I will try to deal with things so that you can be back in my life because I know I'll miss you like crazy but this is just the way it has to be for now.' She says hearing him once again sigh.
'I'm sorry.' He says as she squeezes her eyes shut.
'You shouldn't apologise for being happy. Maybe one day I'll find someone who makes me smile the way Priyanka makes you smile but know that I will always love you, Nick. You're always going to have a special place in my heart no matter who enters my life.' She says.
'And I'll always love you. We've been through too much together and I hope that one day we'll be able to be friends because I'll miss having you around.' He admits.
'Maybe one day... Take care of yourself, Nick.' She says softly.
'You take care of yourself, Demi. I just- I want you to know that I am, and always will be, so incredibly proud of everything you have achieved and will continue to achieve. I just know that you'll change this world one day, Demi.' He replies as she quickly wipes her cheeks.
'Bye, Nick.' She almost whispers.
'Bye, Dems.' He says. Placing the phone down on the bed, she grips hold of the covers and begins to sob.
