family secrets || fillie

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millie's pov

2 days have passed from the dinner at finn's house. we watched a movie as planned and i left with a goodbye and a smile. i almost blew my cover..

i open my eyes from my nap that i took from 3 pm to 5 pm . i look at my surroundings and i see a mirror on my makeup vanity and i look in the background.

the gun my father got me for my sweet 16 .. i haven't used it , and i plan on never doing so

i'm not sick and cruel like the men in my family. i'm more classy then that.

i walk up to it and pick it up in my hands . looking at the thick all black metal covering the bullet filled horror.

i hear my mother and father call me down to the family room to have a chat.

i skip down our spiral staircase and see them with a proud but sorrowful look . oh no what happened now.

"millie , have a seat please . we need to talk to you." they say gesturing for me to sit in the comfy black chair in front of them.

"as you know in the brown family we get married young so we can start a family so the family can grow , which means more people to participate in our tradition" he finishes looking at my mother. i have a feeling something is not going to be good.

they are at a loss of words with there mouths slightly open looking for the right way to say it.

"you're getting married in 5 weeks!" my mother says fast as light clapping her hands and smiling big.

"married?! in 5 weeks?! mom no! i'm only 17! i-i haven't lived my life yet!" i say on the verge of tears.

"oh honey i know" she says walking over to me with open arms. she hugs me right but i just stay frozen looking at the ground with my mouth open.

"why do i have to give up my life just because of some stupid family tradition" i ask with tears on my now red cheeks.

"millie , paige got married at 18 as well and so did you brother charlie! and when ava comes of age so will she" my father says to me with a 'duh' face.

"what's the big deal anyway? all girls  want to do now is have sex and do drugs" my father says as i cringe at his words.

"well i'm not like most girls dad! i don't cake myself in makeup, i don't gossip and i'm not into sex and drugs ! i'm millie brown the girl who loves wearing leggings and sweatshirts to school ! i'm not them." i say in a softer tone .

"honey i know your not and so does your father ..." she trails off giving him a death glare

"just sleep on it kay?" she says with a smile . "it's still happening but still sleep on it later tonight dear" i roll my eyes and stomp up the stairs . what complete and utter bullshit.

i run over to my desk and slam my elbows down and put my hands over my eyes groaning.  the only thing that can calm my nerves is writing.

i get my notebook out from my storage bin and get my pen out and let my annoyed heart lead the way .

i'm in utter shock right now . i haven't even been to college yet and i'm being forced to get married to probably someone i don't even know. my parents think that i can get married and have children in just a snap of a finger! they are unbelievable and i'm probably going to marry some scumbag or maybe an f boy , who knows. i just wish i could have a normal life .. ava has no idea what growing up in the brown family is going to be like . she is always wanted to grow up and be just like mom and dad and boy is she wrong about that .. i need to clear my head.
i put on some skinny jeans , a gray sweater , a coat and a gucci belt and knee high black velvet boots

i walk out of the house not giving a care in the world about what my parents think . i go to the only place i could think of , the park. the only place my family could actually, be a regular family ..

7 year flashback

"catch me if you can!" i tell running under the slide for a shortcut. "millie brown just you wait! the tickle monster is coming out of hibernation!" my mom yells chasing me all around the park. i giggle not looking where i was going and fall on the sidewalk. a tear streams down my face as i look at my now cut up knee. "oh honey are you okay?!" my mom frantically says looking for other cuts or scratches. "y-yea i'm fine i just fell" i say sniffling wiping my face. "how about this. after we get you cleaned up .. we can go get ice cream and watch peter pan with dad hm?" she says with a smile. i nod quickly getting up and running to the bathroom to wash up.

end of flashback

i miss that.. when my family actually cared about me and not how much money they get . i walk over to the swings and slowly start moving my legs under the sand. i hold on the dirty jail holding up the seat and look at nothing .. just absolutely nothing

.. i hear leaves crunching behind me and whip my head around to see the ebony curls i know all to well now . "oh hey finn you scared me" i say chuckling. "sorry about that .. i didn't know you come to the park" he asks me sitting on the other swing slowly. "i don't .. well not usually but i just needed to think and clear my head ya know?" i say looking at his face . "same here i have some family problems i'm dealing with.." he says trailing off looking into the sand below us. "same here .." i say swinging a bit more . "don't you wish you could just live a bit more with out your life being rushed and smooshed together?" he asks me randomly. i look at him squinting my eyes. "hm a-actually i do think that a lot .. weird" i say picking a thread off my jeans. "wow someone i can actually relate to that's nice" he laughs while running his hands through his hair.

we sat and talked about the most ridiculous things that popped in our minds for what seemed like centuries, but was only an hour and half . "i had a great time talking with you mills but i gotta go back home" he says dusting off his pants. "oh yeah me too my parents are gonna be pissed but who gives a shit." i say sighing grabbing my things. he laughs and looks to the side "yeah..who gives a shit.." he says chuckling. i give him a scrunched up face. "cya wolfhard." i say walking off . "cya brown!" he yells running in the opposite direction. i wonder what his family issues are..

yes i updates twice in a row .. i know 😹 shocking .. anyways comment stuff u want to happen in the next chap i'm all ears :)) ily 💕