family secrets || fillie

𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐄𝐍

"millie! finn! time to go get the wedding registration!" my mother yells downstairs. i roll my eyes and ignore her call falling back asleep comfortably.

"i'm just going to close my eyes for a minute" i mumble to myself with my face squished against my silk pillow case. WORST THING TO DO IN THE MORNING.

"morning millie!" someone yells right in my face. my eyes shoot open to see a face up close with freckles on their face and ebony curls. finn.

"what the hell are you doing in my bed?!" i yell sitting up putting my back against my headboard.

"well last night you told me to sleep with you sooo...." he says chuckling and stretching.

"w-wait..what kind of sleep with-" he cuts me by scoffing and rolling his eyes. "jeez mills get your head out of the gutter..just the sleeping part" he says getting up rubbing his face.

"well i was high on oreos so never listen to a thing i tell you" i say getting up and walking to my bathroom. i turn on the light and shut my eyes due to just waking up.

i brush and floss my teeth then brush my shoulder length hair. i see finns reflection in my mirror just standing there.

i furrow my brows and turn around squinting my eyes at him. "what are you doing?" i ask snapping him back into reality.

he gets out of his trance and looks back at me about to speak. "millie what are we...?" he asks stuffing his hands in the pockets of his joggers.

"well..we're engaged by our parents-" he interrupts me shaking his hand and sitting down in my desk chair.

"we both know that's not what i meant.." he mumbles spinning the chair with his foot looking at the ground. i sigh and carefully walk over sitting in front of him.

i push my lips together trying to think of something to say but my mind is blank and filled with darkness. "what do you think we are" i ask awkwardly fiddling with a string attached to my pants.

"i'm getting mixed signals here millie. i mean the first day we met we almost kissed on your roof, we make out in your room, then now we're falling asleep in each other's arms in your bed" he says stuffing his face in his hands out of frustration.

i close my eyes taking in a deep breath then slowly opening them. "look..i'm sorry about that, i really am okay but i don't know what all of this means finn. i'm getting married in two weeks to a guy that i literally just met..my parents don't really give a damn about how i feel..i-i feel like i don't know anything anymore.." i say looking into his eyes sorrowfully.

"fine..i get that but w-were you just using me? just for fun?" he asks me with his eyes softening with tears working up to his eyes. my heart is literally shattering right now seeing him so upset.

"no no no, i promise i would never use you or anyone for that matter just for fun..i just, think it's so weird you know" i say grabbing his hand and holding it on mine.