family secrets || fillie

𝐄𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐄𝐄𝐍

(not proof read)
                              f.w
our hot and heavy breaths are the only things you can hear in our bedroom as she flips her brown auburn hair out of her face to soon smash her lips against mine for about the fifth time tonight. my hands slide all around her minuscule waist and up and down her back.

i felt her touch move down to the waistband of my black worn out jeans making my heart drop to the bottom of my stomach. my body aches of lust but mostly dominance. she plays with the buckle of my leather belt making me silently groan and scream internally. two can play that game.

my rough hands lower to her under thigh squeezing it making her shriek which also makes me smirk. "you are not winning tonight wolfhard" she says between harsh pecks pushing me down slowly on the silk comforter that coats our bed.

my eyes shoot out as i take a gasp of breath. sweat droplets cover my forehead and arms as i scowl at it in disgust. i look to my right to see an empty bedside but there is a dent in the pillow meaning she was there beforehand. i freeze in my position remembering last night. hoping and praying it was a dream.

i hesitantly lift up the covers to see my lower half bare as i harshly cover it back up with the cover. obviously i'm not disgusted it was with her, it's just the reason we did it. i mumble profanities about myself under my breath as i pick up my discarded clothes and slip them on my body again.

my hand glides down the stairs handrails smoothly as i look around for her. "mills?" i softly call out heading towards the kitchen.
she is leaning on the marble countertops with a cup of coffee in hand with an expressionless face.
"mills..?" i call out more a question than a calling.

her purple silk robe is tied tightly around her waist and her straight hair is pinned up in a tight low bun. "look babe i'm sorry okay..i didn't mean to lash out on you last night. i-i was extremely overwhelmed with my work and i couldn't control myself. i understand if you are still upset" i stutter like an absolute idiot pleading to her that it was an honest mistake.

she shrugs looking to the side where the glass double doors were leading to the backyard. "millie please..come on yell at me!" i ask for anything. a simple response. but nothing.

"yeah i am" she simply mumbles under her breath raising her eyebrows as she speaks. i give her a confused glance on what she meant before she rolled her eyes forcefully putting her mug of coffee on the counter making the strident noise carry through the house.

"i am still upset finn! what you did last night, sucked. i care about you so much it makes me hurt inside. you live a very dangerous life so don't get on my neck because i show you that i actually want you to be alive. talk to me when you start to appreciate me" she lets out a low scoff dumping her scolding hot drink down the drain and starts sluggishly walking out of the room.

"but i do care and appreciate you!- her head whips back as her tawny eyes look at my figure up and down while shaking her head. "obviously you don't. and if you did actually care, you would've told me that you're fine and it will be alright. yet you yelled at me. sorry for being a good girlfriend." her voice softens at the end of her sentence making my mouth go agape.

i run my hands through my jet black curls yanking it out of frustration. god i'm such an asshole. all i want to do is go upstairs and apologize until my knees are dropped down on the floor begging, but she wants to be away from me. i get it.

                               m.b
i rub my hands across my face as i am sat down on the corner of our unmade bed as my back is uncomfortably hunched over. we've never fought like this. we wasted our first time experiencing something so important on a senseless argument.

maybe if i didn't go into his work area this wouldn't have happened. "fuck i should've listened to the voices in my head.." the words are low and almost inaudible. my eyes wander around the huge room we are privileged to have as a bedroom. the bouquet of roses still sits in the tall glass vase i put them in right after finn got them for me a couple weeks ago. obviously they are wilted now but that doesn't mean you shouldn't cherish its beauty any less.

i let my rosy lips curl up into a gentle smile as i trudge into the bathroom resting my hands on the granite countertops that hold our toothbrushes, toothpaste, makeup. just basic necessities.

"millieeeee!" i hear the front door open as finn calls my name in a playful tone. i drop my laptop on our bed covers as i race down stairs trying not to slip on the dark hardwood floors of our double spiral staircase.

"finnieee!" i squeal playfully like a child seeing their parents after school. we embrace each other for the first time in it feels like forever. with my online schooling and his work we barely have time to even kiss each other good morning or goodnight. i notice his left hand is behind his back as he plasters a cheeky grin with his pearly white teeth.

"what are you planning dumbass" i giggle crossing my arms impatiently as he gives me a look of hurt. "how dare- you know what forget the gift" he turns his back in a jokingly manner. "so it's a gift?" i inquire raising my brows in amusement.

"i can never keep something from you can i?" he asks me shaking his head while letting out soft laughs. "nope sorry" i shrug my shoulders making him roll his eyes. he brings his arms around with a teddy bear and a bouquet of freshly picked roses.

"finn! they're gorgeous!" i take the flowers from his grasp and admire them while smiling. "don't forget this little guy" he takes the hand of the stuffed animal and makes it wave while he pouts.

"aw thank you baby" i bring us into another hug rocking us back and forth as his hands wrap around me waist. "no problem mills" he kisses my head while making my cheeks light up red. he still has that affect on me.

i let out a soft sigh touching the dried up petals as one breaks off in the palm of my hand. maybe we just need some distance. some time. but deep down i know that's the last thing we need.

- HEY GUYS UM YES DADDYS BACK IN THE HOUSE I WONT BE LEAVING I HAD ZERO MOTIVATION BUT I PUSHED MYSELF ANE SERVED SOME TEA BUT YEA HEHE HOPE U LIKE IT PLS COMMENT AND VOTE!! 💗💗