June 12th, 2018
It's been years since we were together. I have dated other guys and fallen in love since.
I'm now in another country and I've changed. I've tried committing suicide many times and all that did for me was make me ill and put me in the hospital for a few weeks. I still feel worthless and unmotivated and if I'm honest with myself, it will remain that way.
I'm inactive on my social media and I haven't made any new friends in the year that I've lived here. I got bullied at my first school and have now enrolled in an internet school which is going well so far.
Well doesn't this sound like a diary!
last night while everyone was asleep I went downstairs to get a glass of water and on my way out, I saw a few half-finished wine bottles, gin and a Baileys. I know I shouldn't considering my past and how long it took to basically stop being an alcoholic. But I caved in and thought how bad could one glass be?
BAD- I'm hungover this morning and have class at 1:30.
For now ill stay in bed and watch Netflix.
