- week one of relationship -
Has anyone ever opened up to you? About their insecurities and worries, their family situations and life problems? Well I've never opened up to anyone. I've always thought that I'd want to be alone, that I'd never want a relationship. But the truth is I've always wanted to be noticed, to be cared about, to be listened to, to be found.
With him I felt wanted. With him I felt needed. With him I felt happy. Actually happy, no lies. Every-time My phone notifications went of I'd go crazy. Unless it wasn't him. I know I haven't told you his real name yet, even though you know mine. I wont tell you. But as most girls do, I made him a nickname so I could talk about him without anyone knowing who he really was. His nickname is 'Sky.'
Of course only my close friends knew who 'sky' was. And remember I don't have many close friends. When I told him I loved him, I didn't say it out of habit or to make conversation. I said it to remind him that he was the best thing that had ever happened to me. He was a sensitive guy, which is cute. But can also be dangerous. One wrong move, and poof! He's gone! I don't really know what he would do or what he would say. But I promised myself to never do anything that could even hurt him, even just a little bit. And don't get me wrong, I'd die for him. Even if he wasn't mine. Even if he didn't love me. And I fear that one day.. He won't love me any more. I fear that he will leave me and never return. I fear that I might never find True love again. Because I don't want love, If it isn't with him.
