When The Day Met The Night

50

Brendon I love you but I am mentally and physically drained. Thank you for trying to help me, I love that you are so hell bent on trying to take that man down. But I have made my peace with it. And I see that you can't. So I'm not going to sit here and watch you slowly go insane over a problem that isn't even yours. Please don't try and get in contact with me. I'll speak with you when I'm ready. I really love you and some day maybe after all this has blown away you and I can try again. But right now I need some space. I hope you understand.
I love you.
-Truly Yours, Ri.
Ive read the note over 100 times and it still hasn't hit me that she left me. I feel numb I guess. Yesterday after I read it for the first time I hadn't processed it and I still haven't.
I guess because I thought I had her and she loved me and I loved her, I didn't think what I was doing would really affect her that much. But I was dead wrong.
Of course I'm gunna chase after her. I can't let her go that easily.
I already tried to get a hold of her many times yesterday but I started to realize after about the 20th call and text that she wouldn't answer me. So I began to call other people and they called her and still no answer.
My last choice is to call her mom. I have her number because Rian left it on here.
I dial her number and it rings 3 times before I get an answer.
"Hello." She answers.
"Hey...Ms. Knight?" I ask.
"This is she..."
"It's Brendon-"
"Brendon, hi. How are you?"
"Good. Is Rian there?"
"Yes actually she just got here. She told me what happened. I'm so sorry." She says sadly.
"I'm gunna come-"
"Brendon you really shouldn't. She said she wants space from you. Just give her some time to get over this and she'll come back. I won't let her stay here"
"But Ms. Knight...I love her"
"I know you do sweetie. But she's hurting right now. Okay?" She tries to reason with me.
"Okay...okay. But if she isn't back here by the end of the week, can I come see her?"
"Of course Brendon. She doesn't realize it yet but she needs you."
"And I need her." I sigh. "Thank you" I say and hang up. The only reason I'm even agreeing is because I don't know where she lives exactly.
There's a knock on my door so I go to it. It's Ryan.
"I heard. Are you okay?" He asks coming in.
"I-I don't know...I haven't even really processed it yet." I shake my head.
"She'll come back Bren. She loves you" he comes up behind me as I turn away to go back to the living room. He wraps his arms around my torso and lays his chin on my shoulder.
"Her mom said I could come see her in a week. At least I know she's safe."
"Can I see the note?" He asks, pulling away.
"Wh-Yeah" I grab it from the coffee table and hand it to him.
He reads it over and hands it back.
"What happened? If you don't mind me asking"
"I...uh. She got raped at a party. I tried to take the guy down that did it to her but they wouldn't put him in jail. I continued to try and put him in jail. She didn't like it so she left I guess."
"Man...that sucks. If my opinion means anything. I would tell you to leave her-"
"Yeah well it doesn't" I turn to him, almost yelling.
"Okay-sorry. I'm just saying...she got in a coma and forgot who you were and now she ran away. And didn't you tell me that right before you started dating her. Not only did her friend try to make a move on her but she got back with her ex. It seems it's not meant to be" he explains and fuck maybe he's right. Maybe all these hiccups in us being together are because we aren't supposed to be together...fuck I don't know.
I sigh and sit down, head in hands.
"I don't know Ryan...maybe" how could this be? We seemed so right for each other.
"And...maybe me coming back...proves that further." He sits down next to me. I look up and into his eyes, those eyes that once mesmerized me into falling in love with him, and I come to find they look just the same.