"I JUST WANNA STOP THINKING FOR ONCE" I screamed at the top of my lungs. No one was there to hear me, except for my friends. They were the only ones who knew i killed my father. I wasn't on the run. I wasn't in hiding. I was just there.
"You gonna jump or what" I heard from behind. I turned to see Jin looking at me.
"I...I Don't know." I whispered. Jin nodded. "As long as you don't get hurt, I'm all for it." I smiled at him. Jin had always been there for me, he was for the other boys too. No favor, no special treatment. Just Jin.
"Come on Tae, we don't have all day" Namjoon yelled up to me. I looked towards him. He was sat propped up in the back of Jin's truck with the rest of the boys.He was relaxed, laughing with the Jungkook about something that was said.
I looked away and into the pale pink and orange sky. I wanted to jump. No i needed to jump.
"Tae" i heard from behind. A new voice. Hobi. "You don't have to if you don't want to." "I know" I answered, "But i have to" Jhope nodded in an understanding way. His newly dies black hair blew in the wind. His smile seemingly missing in the somewhat serious moment.
I looked again back at the setting sun. I wanted to run into it.
"Taehyung...we know that your not just doing this because of your father... its because of her isn't it?" Yoongi asked.
Yoongi was the first person to know about her. Her i needed her.
Yoongi walked to me slowly, and put his skinny arm around my shoulder. Yoongi may be cold to those he doesn't know, but to his friends, he would kill or be killed for them.
"I miss her so much... but i have no clue where she is" I said. i knew i was about to cry.
"Let it out, were here for you" Another new voice said. Everyone who had previously been there had left except for the new voice and Yoongi.
"Thanks Jimin" I said. Jimin walked over to us slow as well. His orange hair blending in with the sunset and his voice relaxing.
"I think I can do it" I said no hints of bravery in my voice. The boys nodded, unsure of my decision but with full support. They left silently, climbing down the later.
"I want a countdown" I yelled. The boys answered with a quick yes.
"5" I miss her.
"4" I can do this
"3" Im Sorry
"2" I miss her
"1" Go
So i ran
I jumped
I flew.
No thoughts of my parents for of her invaded my mind. I was ok. I opened my eyes to see the world had slowed before me. I was slowly free-falling from bright orange, pink, and red sky, into the black ocean.
Although i fell slowly, i fell fast, and before i knew it, i was icy cold and swimming underwater. I opened my eyes again to face the polluted and dirty water.
But i could still see.
I looked around and faced what looked like myself in different places in my life.
The first me, young clueless me.
The second and third me, young still and changing back and fourth from bright and then to dark.
The fourth me, my best time in life and saddest time, when i met the boys.
The fifth and sixth me, changed from sad and alone to knowing the people around me are there for me.
The seventh and eighth me, where i learned to accept who i was.
The ninth me was the last...so far. It was my lost self. How i feel know. The feeling that comes up sometimes but goes away. That's who i was now.
Once i realized what was going on I immediately went up to the surface, and swam to shore.
The boys pulled me in, whooping and hollering, and gave me a bunch of towels. Some patted me on the back.
*Time skip*
After things had settled down, we drove into the sunset for awhile until Jin said we should go home.
When we arrived i was tired and just wanted to shower and sleep. I sleepily walked toward my room. I then realized all of the boys staring at me.
"Is something wrong" I asked. Some of the smiled giddily and some giggled.
"Were waiting for your reaction" Jungkook said walking past me and into my room.
"Hey what are yo-" But i saw her.
(Y/N). She was there. I couldn't move. Even when she knocked me to the floor.
"Do something idiot! You're just sitting there while your sister is attacking you" RM said. So i did. I cried and when i cried, our happy Hobi cried. And when he cried, my sister cried. And when she cried Jimin cried. And when he cried Yoongi cried then Jungkook then rm then Jin.
It was an ugly cry but soon was turned to laughter from us all crying.
She was ok. and that"s what mattered.
If she was ok then i was ok.
That was the first night i had control of my raging thoughts. Everyone i cared about was with me and i was ok. We were all ok. Some of us better then ok. Jhope smiled and laughed and so did Yoongi and so did everyone.
We had control.
HELLO. IM TIRED SO THIS WAS BAD. GOODNIGHT LOVE YALL GET GOOD SLEEP AND EAT WELL!!!!!!
P.S. THE DIFFERENT VERSIONS OF HIMSELF ARE THE ALBUMS.
