*TRIGGER WARNING* *TRIGGER WARNING* *TRIGGER WARNING* *TRIGGER WARNING*
I have to do this... Things will be better for everyone this way.
I walked alone, a little past midnight, and headed towards a bridge i had never really seen. I dont go out much and after this i never will again.
Will people miss me? No they wont. How could anyone do that. Im not worth peoples time.
I walked slower as i came to the bridge. This was it huh? I kept walking slower. Soon though, I reached the middle of the bridge. I looked around making sure no one was in sight. I climbed over the railing and waited for a bit taking in the night lights for the last time. Then I breathed and got ready to jump.
On 3
1, I breathed in and out.
2, I let go of the railing and balanced myself
3, I jumped. But i didn't.
Something was holding me back. Not the feeling of regret or a second thought. No a person.
"Let go" I said struggling. The person put up a fight and lifted me over the railing onto the sidewalk. I looked away.
"I cant do that" The person said. I looked to him and met his eyes. "Why?" I asked. "You don't know me and you don't want to so if you just let me jump this can be over for the both of us". Tears had formed in his eyes and streamed down mine.
"I cant let you go...Its not worth it okay?" He said. He was crying now. "I may not know you now but if you don't let go, i promise to teach you how to feel again. I don't want another person to feel nothing. I cant live knowing i didn't do anything to help. So please don't let go."
A few moments passed.
"No...Just leave me alone" I said. His word still ringing through my head. "No" He said, taking my hand. "I will not leave you alone until you can feel again."
"Stop saying that...the whole feel again thing." I said annoyed. "I know what your going through and i know that you maybe act one way but not feel it." he said. He was right. I couldn't feel. I was numb.
"Please say something" He urged.
I thought about what to say.
"Fine, teach me how to feel again" I said. He smiled and hugged me. "Im Namjoon by the way" He still hadn't let go. "Im (Y/N)".
"Well then (Y/N), i promise i will be the light that will always be there to guide you home. I promise that i will only be one call away. I promise that i will be the joy and the happiness you long for." Namjoon said.
And already i could feel something.
Hope.
HILLO!!! SORRY THIS PROBABLY SUCKED BUT HEY I TRIED. ALSO IF YOU GUYS EVER NEED TO TALK ABOUT ANYTHING AT ALL IM HERE. AND I KNOW YALL DONT KNOW ME BUT I GO THROUGH STUFF LIKE THIS ALL THE TIME. ALSO YOU CAN ALWAYS TALK TO A PARENT OR A CLOSE FRIEND OR EVEN A SCHOOL COUNSELOR! REMEMBER THAT I LOVE YOU ALL!! STAY HEALTHY AND EAT WELL!!!!
-ALY
