Living Under A Paper Moon (All Time Low Fanfic)

Chapter 10

Just as I thought things were looking up after the club opening, they returned to the way they were before it. I rarely saw Alex again and I understood that he couldn't be with me all the time but the periods of time I spent without him were too long and I hated it more than anything. Every part of me dreaded the thought of him going on tour, it made me sick to my stomach. The only thing that got better was that I was on top of my friendship with Hannah again. We both made sure we scheduled one day a week off at the same time so we could spend time together. We'd settled in pretty well over the past 4 and half months and everything was becoming normal to us and now that it was October the weather was getting cooler and easier to deal with. I'd decided to take that year off and fully settle down before starting U.C.L.A. next year. The woman brought over our coffee to our table and Celine handed her a tip.

"I don't even know why we're together anymore. We see each other once a week, if even that some weeks!" I complained to Celine and Sarah. We went to this little coffee shop everyday for our lunch break, they practically knew us and our orders but fuck they did good coffee!

"Sweetie, you love him! When you're with him, are you happy?" Sarah asked looking genuinely concerned about how upset I was.

"When we're together, honestly I feel better than I ever do." I stared into my coffee.

"Then Soph, you're going to have to let him do what he loves! Isn't it better to have that one or two days a week to spend with him, than not spending any at all?" Celine said.

"It's horrible not to be able to see him as a regular boy friend, but he's not. Ye love each other and you should look forward to the times you do see him!" Sarah added.  I continued to silently stare into my cup.

"We don't mean to upset you Sweetie, we just want you to be happy and think positively about it!" Celine said looking worried. I didn't like spreading my misery to them. Sarah moved closer to me and hugged me.

"I'm sorry, both of you seriously cheered me up!" I said. I lied. "I love ye guys so much!" I hugged Sarah back, that part I didn't lie about. My phone vibrated on the table. Jack calling.

I walked up the long driveway and went to ring the door bell when Jack swung the door open

"Hey Soph, come in!" he had the biggest smile on his face that was just contagious. I walked into the big house and Jack shut the door behind me. I followed him into the kitchen and sat up on the counter top, the chairs were covered in clothes that needed to be ironed, some plates and a large jar of peanut butter on one.

"Want a beer? Tea? Coffee? A Cheese String? We've got loads of those!" he rooted through the fridge and handed me a beer, knowing what I wanted. He was in an extremely hyper mood. These days I seemed to spend more time with Jack than Alex. "I wanted to talk to you about Alex's birthday." Jack said taking a sip from his can and leaned against the kitchen counter across the way from me. I stared at him, I knew he was crazy but not insane. It was October.

"Jack Sweetheart, have you taken something?" I examined him carefully.

"God no!" he exclaimed "Sorry, I'm being very full on aren't I? I'm sorry, I'm always the only one at home and it gets to me and I like your company." he trailed off smiling shyly. He was too adorable. I smiled back at him.

"It's okay, I know how that feels sometimes" I agreed. I felt sorry for Jack, he didn't have a girlfriend (which puzzled me how he didn't really), his best friend was always working writing songs and doing interviews and he seemed to be lonely a lot.

"You know you can call me whenever you want? I like hanging around with you!" I said. It was weird, even though he was Alex's best friend, when I was with Jack, I forgot about how much I missed Alex. And he was always so fun to just be around, he was so hyper at times and could have the best time with him and he could be the sweet, awkward, adorable guy who was like my best friend and I could trust with anything.

"Thank you, Sophie. Trust me, you're one of the coolest people to hang out with!" he had the cutest smile on his face. "Anyway, I actually wanted to talk to you about Alex's birthday this December.....".

Jack asked me to help him plan Alex's birthday since I was, despite how little I'd seen him lately, his girlfriend. It sounded insane to me at first but after he fully explained to me, I understood all the organising involved. Alex was a popular man. We'd meet every Wednesday (my day off) unless Jack had something planned. I stayed over that night and lay in the bed, Alex's muscular arms around me, sealing me in like an envelope. I looked at how content he was while sleeping, of course I couldn't sleep. Every moment I got to spend with Alex, conscious or not, I wanted to last. I stirred a little in the bed trying to get comfortable. Alex woke. He smiled and kissed the top of my head. We said nothing just looked into each others eyes. He kissed me pulling me closer to him, tangling his fingers in my hair and I responded immediately. The kiss didn't last long, but it felt so right. I'd missed that.

"Are you happy, Baby?" Alex asked, he spoke in a hushed tone but his voice was as perfect as ever.

"Of course, how couldn't I be?" I replied. I wasn't lying. At that very moment I was extremely happy, I knew that wasn't what he meant but I avoided the truth.

"Well if you're missing me half as much as I'm missing you, there is no way you could be." he's eyes looked like a puppy's who'd been locked out of the house, big, brown and sad.

"Of course I'm missing you Alex, everyday. It's eating at me. But if you're happy...." I began before being cut off by Alex.

"I'm not happy." he said quietly. I put my hand to his cheek.

"Alex, why? You have everything? You're out writing a new album for your band, you're out doing interviews and photo shoots..." he didn't seem to want me to finish any of my sentences today.

"Sophie, I barely see you. I can't help it, I've fallen for you!  It hurts and I can't do anything about it! I wake up everyday and hope that there's nothing on my schedule but of course there always fucking is! Sophie, I just want you to be happy, then I can and whatever that means, I'll do it." he was a mess. Who thought I could make Alex this in love with me. I was speechless.

"Okay, I know what I need to do, I'm taking the whole next week off and I'm spending it with you, fuck them. I'll finish the album as soon as I can and we're free, you'll be all mine!" Alex kissed me again, more passion this time. Wow he really had gone insane. There was one thing he hadn't considered but I left him off to keep him happy.