I now knew how Hannah felt sometimes, like things were too much. My problems were my own fault though. I'd hurt others too. That made it worse.
"Sophie sweetie, please stop crying. You're beating yourself up over nothing." Alex put his arm around me, trying to comfort me. I ignored him and kept soundlessly crying. Suddenly he pulled over the car and got out. He walked over to my side of the car, opened the door and pulled me out into his arms. He left me cry while he held me for a while, rubbing my back, trying to calm me down. After a while I did. He sat down in the passenger seat and pulled me onto his lap. Now that we weren't together, it was like he was treating me like a five year old. I was still sniffling but the tears seemed to run out.
"Sophie. Look at me. Tell me exactly whats up 'cause you couldn't be just upset because Jack's driving to Baltimore." definitely treating me like a five year old. I looked up.
"Everything that happened, it's my fucking fault. Since I came here, everythings turned to shit! I mean you and Jack have been best friends for like ten years and I come along and suddenly, you two barely speak. I fell into the temptation of Jack. I was upset that I hardly ever saw you and I fell for him and thats when things got totally screwed. And you! You are probably the best boyfriend a girl could get, cheesy but the nicest, sweetest, funniest guy ever. And I screwed it up. I screwed it all up and here you are trying to pick up the pieces. I hurt people Alex, you and I included but I deserve it where as you don't. I'm so fucking sorry Alex." I couldn't hold it in. I seemed like an attention seeker but honestly I was just a stupid nineteen year old who didn't know how to appreciate it. I could see his lips moving, arguing with my statement. I couldn't hear him, I chose not to. Everything he was saying was lies about how "nice and beautiful and caring" I was. It was all untrue. I wouldn't believe a word of what he said. I didn't understand how he could let me sit here and cuddle into him and be so sweet to me after everything I had done. It made me feel worse knowing what an amazing guy he was. My phone rang in my pocket.
"Answer it." Alex said. I shook my head and buried my head in his chest.
After that, things weren't as bad. I still felt like shit but I knew Alex didn't completely hate me so I felt a bit better. Everytime a song he knew we'd both like came on the radio, he turned it full blast and sang at the top of his lungs trying to cheer me up, he was too perfect. I joined in after a while, trying to forget. I decided to check my phone, I'd turned it on silent. What the fuck? Thirty seven missed calls. All of them were from Hannah, Sarah, Celine, Rian, Zack, Matt. Things seemed urgent. I had texts from the same people too. All of them were around the lines of:
"Fuck Sophie answer you're phone it's a fucking emergency!"
"SOPHIE ANSWER THE FUCKING PHONE!" "Stevens answer the phone, you'll regret not doing it!".
"Alex, wheres your phone?" I asked quietly.
"I don't know, not sure I even brought it, why?" he replied looking over from the road at me. The last call was from Celine so I just rang her.
"SOPHIE! OH MY GOD EVERYBODY SOPHIES ON THE PHONE!" I heard Celine shout and people shout in the background. "SOPHIE GET YOU'RE ASS HOME NOW! IT'S JACK, HE WAS IN A CAR CRASH!"
I froze and Alex was trying to talk to me. So was everybody else at the other side of the phone. Alex pulled in the car and took the phone off me. I only heard his side of the conversation.
"What?.....You're fucking joking right?......Fucking shit, yeah we're on our way....... Can I speak to him?...... Woah, yeah give us an hour, I'll try not get caught for speeding.... Thanks Celine, we're on our way."
For a room with so many people, the silence was eery. People with broken smiles and sympathetic eyes filled the hospital waiting room.
"He was pretty hungover. He was driving with one hand and then answered the phone. The car was also stolen." the cop explained to us.
"It was my car, not stolen." Matt added quietly. The cop nodded.
"It was a stupid, stupid thing he did. Since he could be severely injured and the fact he was unaware that they had drugged him here before he left, we have decided to drop all charges. We're very sorry for this situation." he nodded his head and left.
"Has he woken up?" Alex asked. Rian nodded.
"He wants the two of you, it's all he's been asking for." Zack said. I noticed Hannah in floods of tears crying in Brendon's lap with Zack and Sarah helping him comfort her. I wondered why, she'd been good friends with Jack but she seemed hysterical. My dad and my cousin Ciara sat near by. I'd forgotten she was coming a few days early to fly home with my dad. She smiled weakly and I went over and hugged her tightly. She didn't say anything, she didn't know what to say. I understood. Alex took my hand and we walked towards the room.
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Living Under A Paper Moon (All Time Low Fanfic)
FanfictionSophie and Hannah need a fresh start, to get away and leave all their shit behind. Finding new friends isn't always easy in a totally new part of the world but fortunately when the girls befriend the members of All Time Low, things seem to be on the...