Living Under A Paper Moon (All Time Low Fanfic)

Chapter 18

After about ten minutes I realised what I was doing. I was cheating on my amazing, adorable, loving boyfriend. Nothing had happened yet. I tried to push Jack away, I stopped kissing back. He was determined not to stop. I had no other choice. I kneed him in the crotch  and he pulled back and fell in pain.

"Jack, seriously! You know what you're doing? You're making me cheat on my boyfriend, who just happens to be your best friend!" I sat up and pulled my shirt back on "I can't do that, I love him." I stood up, he was lying on the bed his face in his hands.

"How the fuck do you do this to me Sophie?" he growled and stood up and walked towards me. "You and I both know, I'm right. You're not happy with Alex, you wouldn't have let me do that otherwise. You and Alex, your just pretty good friends in a relationship because you got confused by his celebrity status, his good looks and his funny, nice guy characteristics. You know I love you Sophie, it's wrong, you're my best friends chick. Honestly, I'd never let anything come between me and Alex but you, you mess with my brain. I can't understand why the fuck I'm so in love with you, well I can but I don't know how I've been driven to this point. Sophie, you're hurting people now. You're hurting Alex for keeping him in a relationship where your not in love with him. You're slowly fucking killing me, really. Not just when you and Alex are all kissing and shit, when you don't answer my calls, texts, ignore me like I'm a fucking ghost! You know why you're doing that? Because you are in love with me. You won't admit it to yourself because you love Alex to much to hurt him. You're gonna hurt him more this way Sophie. I know it." Jack's hands held my face in place, I couldn't help but look into his big, gorgeous, brown, glassy eyes that stared right into mine. I couldn't look at him and shut my eyes. He gently pressed his lips against mine for a few seconds before I pulled away. "I have to go." was all I said and left the room.

I woke up to Alex trying to kiss me. Fuck what type of mess was I in?

"Merry Christmas, Baby." he whispered and started to kiss my neck. My head felt like it was about to explode, the pain inside it was too big for my skull and was slowly trying to push itself out. His hands were wandering under my tshirt. I kissed him for a few seconds before pulling away. I looked at the time on my phone. Nine thirty. I'd finally fallen asleep at about quarter to seven and now I was being woken up. I spent the time that Jack had given his speech to the time I feel asleep about what Jack had said. I knew every word of what he said was the truth and honestly now it was killing me. The longer I held onto Alex, the more I'd hurt him. I knew I couldn't be with Jack either after we broke up. The ex boyfriends best friend? Well the tabloids would enjoy that!

"Do you want your shower before me?" I asked getting out of the bed. "No, we can share one." he winked and grabbed two towels. This was going to be harder than expected.

"Merry Christmas Stevens!" Zack smiled as I opened the wrapped box from him. Converse. I opened the box, inside was a new pair of black Converse and an "Amerrickan" tshirt.

"Thanks, Merrick! This is awesome. Really thank you Sweetie." I leaned over and hugged him and kissed him on the cheek. I'd gotten into the habit of calling him Merrick as a joke at the start but it was all I called him now.

"I thought you could do with a new pair, you're old ones are looking pretty run down." he smiled. Everyone was opening presents everywhere. The floor was covered in paper and gifts people had put down. My dad had given me and Hannah another extreme amount of  money. I tried to  give half of it back but he refused it, Hannah had bought me a black, very expensive designer dress I'd tried on when we went shopping a few weeks ago, for going out (because my other one was still stained with blood), Sarah had gotten me a signed Fall Out Boy tshirt (which she said was a lot of effort, but she was happy she got it for me) and everyone had gotten me amazing presents. This should have been the best Christmas ever, but I felt like shit. I saw an unusually big wrapped box with my name on it. I recognised it from the hand writing and seeing it in his room yesterday. It was from Jack.

"That's from me Sophie." Jack said awkwardly, opening a present from Rian. It was a Gibson SG Standard electric guitar, the exact same as his own. I stared at it in shock. He didn't really buy this for me did he? I mean, he was one of my best friends for the last six months, but we had rough patches and never mind what was going on now.

"I hope you like it. I bought it two months back, after I tried to teach you and you sucked, I thought your own might help you be more successful. I can probably return it though, you know if you-" Jack said to me before I ran over and wrapped my arms around him.

"I love it Jack, really thank you so much. I love you." I whispered. He wrapped hi arms around me and his body relaxed against mine.

"You'll have to teach me to play it now! Should be no problem to the best guitar player" I smiled realising him from my hug.

"Hey!" Alex complained. I went and sat next to him and kissed his cheek. "Okay, okay. Before I give you my present from me, on behalf of the band I'd like to tell you something Sophie. To be honest I thought you'd presume it but after confiding in the lovely Jack over there obviously you didn't. Sophie, we want to ask you to come on tour with us this year. You're a big friend of the band and honestly a year away from you? Impossible." he smiled at me holding my hand. I looked around at everyone smiling at me too. I felt a weird turning in my stomach, fuck I couldn't do this now could I? "And before you say anything about not being able to leave Hannah, we talked to Matt, pulled some strings and bitch, it sounds so weird but we're touring with Panic! At the Disco, so you and Hannah can be together! Well Sweetie, what do you say?" Again I looked around at everyone staring at me. I caught Jack's eye. I stared at him for a minute. I couldn't figure out what he was trying to say but after a while he subtly nodded his head. I looked back at Alex and smiled and nodded. 

"Yes, Alex! Thank you!" I jumped up and hugged him and he lifted me into his arms. I couldn't help but still look at Jack over his shoulder. He gave me a weak smile. What type of mess did I manage to get myself into.