The Long Road Less Taken

Chapter 6

It was ten minutes before the end of math class. I was getting skirmish, but I couldn't wait. So I made the bathroom sign with my fingers, I had finished the class work anyway. Ms. Brooks lets me go. Then she looks back at her papers. I grab my book bag and go out. I mean, I wasn't lying when I said I had to go to the bathroom. When I get out, I check my phone, six minutes. It would take awhile to walk there so I started walking. When I walk past my classroom, I see Jonathan looking out the class door window. He couldn't have recognized me because I was walking fast. I was just hoping for the best. About two minutes later I'm at the bleachers. Then I see Sebi in the middle of the bleachers. As I'm walking under them, Sebi sees me and says in a sarcastic, mocking tone,

"Your late."

"Shut the hell up. Its been a minute." I snap back.

"That means a minute off the conference." I knew he was lying because he doesn't ever have a time limit on these. Then I sit down next to him.

"So what's wrong? You haven't come to me since Tay-"

"I know." cutting him off.

"Sebi, I'm scared. I think I'm falling in love again. But this time I don't want to be."

"Why?"

"You know why."

"I know, but it's better if you just tell me again, as if I didn't already know."

"Okay fine. When I had first met Taylor, we were just friends, then I started to like him, it was just a simple crush, then I found myself constantly thinking about him. I didn't know what to do. I kept it all inside which made it worse. Also it was freshman year, almost everyone I knew or saw was in some sort of relationship and I was just the awkward turtle of the crowd. So yes, I was jealous of everyone. I wanted to tell Taylor I liked him, because to me, it seemed like he liked me too. One day, when we were hanging out, I asked him if he liked me, he was shocked, but he said yes. Then I was really excited. Because I fell in love with him, and I fell hard, but I couldn't feel the pain of it. Then a couple weeks went by. Then he told m he loved me too. I had never felt that good before in my life. Then after a few more weeks, he broke up with me. I had felt the pain of the fall. It was like, my heart had been ripped out of my body. Then the depression sunk back in. I had no idea what to do. I just knew that I couldn't let myself feel that way again. Now I'm feeling it again. And I'm fucking scared. I've been trying to push it away, but it's just too hard. Sebi, help me, please." Then he reaches over and hugs me. I hug him back. Once he lets go he asks,

"Who is it?"

"Jonathan."

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I looked at Sebi, he had a look of shock and worried on his face. The shocked face I wasn't curious about, the worried face made me interested though.

"You look worried." I say.

"It's nothing." Then I just let it slide.

"But what do you think I should do? I don't know how to prevent it, but I don't want to feel that pain again."

"Well Vikki, it's kinda hard to not love someone, yet love them at the same time. So do you love him? Or not."

"I don't know...I mean I think I do. Because he's all I've been thinking about all day. But I still don't want to be hurt. Do you think I should tell him I like him? Or do you think I would be going to fast?"

" It is only the second day...I mean yes it would be a little fast. But I know Jonathan. He likes fast situations. I think you should wait at least two more days."

"Wait, you talked to him already? Was it about me? What did he say?"

"I can't say. Patient confidentiality."

"Fine. Does he have a girlfriend? If you can tell me."

"I can tell you. And he doesn't. He did tell me he has his eye on someone though." That made me have a spaz attack inside. It probably wasn't me but I can wish.

"Okay well how should we enter the cafeteria without it looking like we just made out?"

"I'll enter through the long way and you enter the way you came."

"Okay. I'll see you in a couple minutes."

"Okay." Then right when I enter the cafeteria I see Jonathan's eyes lock with mine. Then I wave. He waves back. He has a sceptical and curious look on his face. I knew this wouldn't end well.

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