michael's Diary // clemmings

Entry 9

So I've got all my things packed and I'm ready to leave. It's about 1am and I don't want to wake anyone up I'm not sure I'm I want to leave this diary or if I should bring it with me. I have written a note about why I'm leaving and I put it on the table. I'm just waiting to gain the courage to actually get up and leave.

Mikey's note:

Guys,

So this is my note to you I've decided to leave the band. It's about 1am and I just don't feel like I can do this. I feel like youre all so against me the way you laugh when I sing or you give each other looks when I say something I know that when the three of you talk it's always about me or else I wouldn't be excluded. I just feel like such an outsider and it's my turn to run away but not from the cops for killing someone but from my band mates treating me like shit. I dint know if I'll come back. As of right now I don't think I want to. It's hard leaving your best mates and doing the thing you love but I don't feel like I'm a real part of 5 Seconds Of Summer. I honestly just feel like a guitarist that gets laughed at when I sing. I don't think I belong her with you guys and from they way you're acting I don't think you guys want me here so I've had enough and I've packed up and left. Everyone says that some friends are forever other will just stab you in the back when it comes to the end. Thanks for the experience. Hope you three really make it somewhere. I'll defiantly be in the first row in you first big concert here.

You'll make it without me,

Mikey

It's almost 1:30 and I'm ready to go. I've got everything packed and I'm getting ready to leave. I really do hope they make it I just don't think I'll be around for it honestly. They were the inky ones keeping me sane but I'll move back in with mum and be with family and I'll just settle with being 5SOS' biggest fan.

Here's my last entry

Mikey

I left my diary next to the note and I headed out the door it was quiet and I walked down the street to the corner and rang my mum. Luckily she picked up.

I was already sobbing into the phone when she picked up.

"Hello? Mikey? What's wrong."

"Mum, I need you to come get me I'm at the corner of the street from the house."

"Mikey baby, what happened what's going on?"

"I left the band."

"Oh Mikey. I'll be there in a bit but were going to talk when we get home."

"Okay"

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I was in the home I grew up in. All my memories were here and I've missed it. I just wanted to sleep. I'm tired but my mum insisted on talking about what's was going on so she's making us tea and then we're going to have a long talk.

"So Mikey, Hun, what made you want to leave the band at 1am when everyone else was asleep?" She asked.

"Do you want me to start at the part were I figured out I have feelings for Luke or the part were they started excluding me from this talk then laugh when I sing and give each other looks when I talk?" I replied

"Oh Mikey honey, tell me it all."

So I told her everything. I told here when I realized I had feelings for Luke then when Calum read my diary and then the little talk sessions the excluded me from. I told her about how they laughed and all the looks. I told he about the fake dating. Everything.

She hugged me and sent me it bed. I was clearly tired and I trudged all the way to my room. When I got there I looked around. My old band posters plastered around the deep purple room the bed hasn't been made since I left to live in the house. Nothing's been touched. It was exactly the way I left it. So I crawled into bed and went to sleep.

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I hope you liked this. It killed me to write the note like I actually cried at the thought of them doing that it him then him leaving the band. But thank you for reading and I have a very good palm for the next chapter so get ready. And yay for the double update