michael's Diary // clemmings

staying or leaving?

I walked into the house and Ashton was sitting in the kitchen.

"what the hell?" he said "you got him to come back?"

"yes" calum said

"listen Mikey we need to have a talk." ashton said to me

"yeah I know and well have that talk later but I have a broken luke to fix." I sad and dropped my bag and ran upstairs.

"hold up there. Luke's still asleep I just check on him so let's have out talk." he said getting up from his seat and going upstairs. I took that as sign to follow and I did just that.

"why would you ever think we were against you mikes?" he said

"I - I done know just the way you three acted around me I just sorta felt left out and that you didn't want me around. like I wasn't a real part of the band."

"mikey, you are a huge part if the band. you came up with the name you were here from the start. if anything I'm not a true part of the band I was here last just because you needed me." (a/n: I didn't want to write this but I kinda had to)

"don't say that."

"then you don't say it either."

"do you still want me in the band I mean what if I try to leave again?"

"Mikey, I want you in the band but that decision is up to you."

"thanks ash. I need to talk to luke though." and I got up and left his room heading the Luke's room.

I knocked on Luke's door and waited for a reply.

"go away." I heard through the door. I took that as a come on in and I walked into his room.

"I said g-" he cut himself off when he looked up. I shut the door behind me and looked at him. he moved so fast it get out of that bed he feel and got all tangled up in the sheets.

once he got to me he just held onto my shoulders and cried.

"I thought you weren't going to come back." luke said into my shoulder. I lead him over to the bed and looked at him.

"after what calum told me and showed me" I said holding up his journal and his face turned a shade of light red. "I had to come back." I said leaning into hug him.

"mikey, after all this time I really think I love you." he said hiding his face.

"I love you too." I said his head shot up and I kissed him gently.

"um luke, I told ashton and calum the same thing I'm going to tell you. i won't be in the band again unless you all want me to. they do but it just you. do um do you still want me in the band?" I asked him looking into his eyes the whole time. he took some time to answer but when he did I nodded and went downstairs.

I walked down stairs and picked up my bag and looked at them. I had tears in my eyes and on my cheeks.

"Mikey, what's wrong?" calum asked coming toward me.

"luke doesn't want me in the band." and so again. I picked up my bag and left.

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