Snuggling Up

My Love Is My Weakness

I looked at Chris fast asleep as I stopped crying at 12:00 AM it was midnight as I got out of the covers naked and putting them back like they were I sat on the ground in the darkness connecting with spirits telling them my body was naked but my heart was broken and weakened I let my love for her get the best of me as I got up Chris woke up feeling the covers he did not feel me he yelled BABE WHERE ARE YOU! I looked up chanting trying not to get distracted as I kept chanting I felt something scratch me various times I was bleeding all over I could feel it I screamed as another scratch happened I was torturing myself with the demons in me *screams* as Chris jumped up grabbing his phone quick turning on the light seeing me filled with scratches bleeding it was all in threes he jumped out of bed I cried on the floor not seeing him coming as I murmured Aces name over and over talking about how we were and all the things she said were true and that It was all my fault we were in this situation we are in and I should just die for all my sins chris ran to me raising my head up as he hugged my scratched and naked body saying it's not your fault,the things she saying to me were not true and I should not be hurting myself or thinking of dying just because of it I cried harder hugging him tighter as my heart kept breaking as he looked at my scratches saying were you torturing yourself with demons just because of Ace I said to him yes I'm alone and never going to get her back so why not just let the darkness take me I deserve to suffer he hugged my naked body tighter saying no you don't ok don't hurt yourself because of her she's not worth your suffering I hugged him even more as the tears ran down his back it hurts so bad I told him she hates me he held me tighter saying your with me now don't forget how much you love me I kissed him deep as he put his hands over my back