The Outsiders:Bella's story /Dallas Winston fan fic)

Chapter 46:Shattered

(Listen to the song as you read the chapter)

As I continued to run I found dally's room and kicked the door open, to only see dally hooked up to a life support which was still able to make him...alive.

I ran over and sat next to his bed with my head down on the bed I began to sob.

"Please don't go" I croaked

"Please dal I need you, we all need you" I say crying a bit.

"Bella we'll have to run tests on you so come with me" the doctor replied as Darry and Sodapop walked in helping me up.

"It's okay Bella it wasn't your fault, the driver was drinking and driving and hit you head on don't you remember?" Darry asked as I shook my head no.

I turned my back and heard the beeping from his life support, other staff members rushed in there, dally was dying.

After the testing I went back to my room, lying on the hospital bed I began to cry.

Did I kill the infamous Dallas Winston? Did I, Isabella Marie Curtis kill Dallas Winston?. It was my fault and I knew it. Nobody had to tell me that dally would be gone because deep down I already knew. No one had to tell me he wouldn't make it because I knew. No one had to tell me that I killed him because yet again I knew. I knew or which I thought he would never pull through.

"Would you stop with the crying already? How do you think we all felt when you faked your death or were dying. We knew you'd pull through because we had hope and believed. Dallas Winston would be so disappointed in his girl that she's crying over him" Steve said harshly.

"Steve stop it" Sodapop says in a stern voice.

"And another thing! Your selfish Bella, trying to kill yourself, trying to fake your death and the many times you nearly died! Was it for attention? Huh? He's not going to Die Bella, The good lord himself doesn't want him yet and the Devil himself ain't ready for Dallas Winston. So buckle up and stop with this dramatic tears Bella. All ya ever do is cry and cry some more God!. Just stop blaming yourself already! Accidents happen!" Steve yelled in a harsh tone as Sodapop dragged him out of my room.

"That was...harsh" I said in a quiet voice as Darry hugged me.

"It's okay Bella, he'll be fine" Darry says kissing my forehead.

"What if he dies? How do I explain to Johnny" I say wiping a tear away from me.

"He won't die, this is Dallas Winston were talking about if anyone were to survive this it'd be him" Two-bit says sitting next to my bed.

"I don't know anymore" I say staring up at the ceiling.

"Take it One day at a time" two-bit said reassuring me.

"Steve was so mad at me" I say softly.

"He's just...he's just something" Two spoke.

"He hates me" I say taking a sip of water.

"Nah. He just doesn't know what to say about these things" two says placing an arm on my shoulder.

"We should let her rest...see ya tomorrow" Darry says blowing me a kiss and leading two-bit out of the room.

I began to cry

It was my fault the four of us were in this hospital, my fault we nearly died, my fault if dally dies. Everything.is.my.fault.

I woke up the next morning to see Darry standing at the edge of my bed.

"You feeling any better?" He asks holding my feet.

"Kinda....Im just scared" I say taking a sip of water.

"It's okay everything will be okay" Darry says trying to make me feel better.

I'm dead in the inside, I'm dead Mentally but not physically, how am I to cope if Dallas Winston died? How am I to feel? What would I say?.

"There she is Alive and well" Ponyboy says walking into the room with a few cuts on his face.

"Oh pony!" I say as he hugged me.

"I'm sorry....dally isn't doing to good" I tell him as he nods.

"Johnny and I both no. We get to go home today" pony says changing the subject.

"Can I go home too?" I asked Darry.

"No they want to keep you another night" Darry says.

"Where's Sodapop?" I asked.

"At home, he and Steve hung out last night trying to cool Steve down" Darry says.

"I hope dal don't die" Johnny says standing off to DARRYS right side.

"It's Dallas Winston were talking about...he don't go down without a fight" pony says.

Another night in hell, I wonder how dally is doing, is he dead? Am I going crazy?

I don't know what to think or say besides sorry....nobody could understand how I was feeling right now. I looked into the mirror and say the face I couldn't recognize anymore. I told myself "hold it together Bella goddammit" I splashed some water on my face and brush d my hair into a tight pony tail.

I walked out of the room wearing a hospital gown, I hold onto my IV and walk towards dally's room.

I opened his door to find that he was not there, was he dead? Was he gone?.

"Excuses me miss but Dallas Winston got moved to the Emerge Centre they will bring him back here soon" the nurse says.

I walk all the way back to my room thinking of what could go wrong, what if Dally died? I have a feeling he would just leave me like this, I didn't mean anything to him, I was just another 'broad'.

I lay down in the bed closing my eyes for a good solid ten minutes. I open my eyes to look seeing that someone was standing in front of my bed in the dark.

"Hello? Who are you?" I asked sitting up.

"Who the hell are you?" I asked again throwing a pillow at them.

"Woah Calm down Dollface it's just me" the raspy voice said.

I knew who it was....

"DALLY!" I yelled jumping off the bed leaping into his arms as he caught me with a grunt.

"Dally thank god your not dead!" I said kissing him roughly on the lips.

"Listen Doll I know you wanna have fun but not in the hospital" he said smirking as I slapped his arm.

"Why would you think I was dead?" He asked cupping my face with his hands.

"I saw you dying Dal...I could've killed you I would never have forgave myself" I say wiping a tear away.

"Nah babe you can't get rid of me that easily even if you tried" he says as he leaned down and kissed my lips.

"Thank god you didn't die... Cuz that'd be the worse break up ever" I say grinning.

The next day dal and I were both released from the hospital, I was glad I had my dally back, I loved him...not sure how he felt about me tho?.