Be Okay {Kellic}

Chapter 1 ~ White Walled Hell

Kellin's pov

Water Stone Home For The Mentally Unwell was a nice place to live. It was a tall silver building that looked like any other office building. Every room was very nice, queen size bed, large window looking over the world we're hide away from, and a bathroom. The people who worked here were lovely as well. Since my problem was apparently "bigger then life" I get my personal sessions with my nurses but I am still forced to attend group therapy where I sit and stare with a dead look on my face at whatever poor soul is running it for the day.

My nurse always changed and each one was very different.

Monday was Justin. He was pretty young. He would sit in the spinney chair I kept for them and he would ask me about my day then he'll tell me about his when I barley answer.

Tuesday was Lauren. Sweet girl. She liked to sit next to me on the bed sometimes she would lay depending on her mood. She always talked about her girlfriend who was also another one of my nurse.

Wednesday was Alex. Cute dude. We would talk and walk around the building. When I mean talk he would say positive thing while I nodded taking in my surrounds that I only saw twice a day.

Thursday was Jenna. Lauren's girlfriend. We would sit on my floor and giggle at the dumb jokes Jenna would make. She was very nice.

Friday was Alan. Chill guy. He would sit, or stand, wherever he pleased, which angered me a little because he likes to look through my stuff. But he bought me a cookie or something so I can look past that.

Saturday and Sunday was my favorite nurse Mike. He took me outside where we would sit on a bench and feed ducks and he would just be lovely to me which I always appreciated.

I didn't like to make friends so the nurses were the only people I ever hung around. When I saw them in the hallway I would give them a smile and a wave which they would return. I preferred solitude.

One thing I never liked about Water Stone was the color of everything. Everything was white. White tables, white floor tiles, white doors, and the worst white walls. When I would stare at the wall during the day I would end up getting a head ache because the sun from my window will relfect off the wall burning my eyes. I've been here for about 2 years and everyday I would stare at that god damn white wall and think. But I was running out of things to think off.

I thought about my asshole parents.

I thought about my old friends.

I thought about dying.

I thought about getting better.

I thought about getting out of this white walled hell.

I thought about escaping.

So my mind went to the only thing humans are desecent at.

Love.

Well relationships. Love is just a distraction. To say I was a flaming homosexual would be an understatement. I would dress up like I wanted to but we could only do that on Friday. Every other day we were forced to wear, guess what color, WHITE! I swear this place is obsessed with that shade. But anyway I wanted a boyfriend but I couldn't get one. There was no one I was attracted to here. Also my "unwellness" will keep me from love.

After being trapped in this blinding room for a long time you lose track of the time, and the date, and the month. I knew what season it was because the ac was blasting, that must mean it was July or August. The only time I knew the exact date was when all my nurses come in and sing me "happy birthday"

"Hey Kellin" Mike smiled opening my door. So today was either Saturday since I saw Alan yesterday.

"Hi." I said very quietly.

"Kellin I have some exciting news. Everything's exciting to Mike so I don't have high expectations. "Were getting a new nurse!" I gave him a small smile. "And this new nurse is my brother!"

"Vic?" I asked again very quietly. Mike had talked about his brother a few times and he seemed like a cool dude.

"Yes would you like to meet him?" Mike asked still standing at the door. I gave him a firm nod as I hopped off my un-made bed.

Mike took a left which meant Vic was where all our therapy sessions took place.

"Aye Mikey!" The short, unfamiliar man shouted as Mike entered the room bringing him in a brotherly embrace.4

"Hey Vic this is your new patient Kellin." Wait new patient?' Was Mike just going to let me go off with this stranger? He can't do that. But I did what I do best I kept a straight face and shook Vic's hand

"Great to meet you Kellin." He beamed. I looked a Mike with a slight worried look on my face.

"Don't worry man I trust Vicky here with my life and for the first few days I'll be there to assist." Mike reassured me.

"Which day is he filling in?" I asked hopping he wasn't replacing any of the other nurses.

"He's going to be there everyday to make sure you don't have any 'mishappes'" He told me as Vic smiled and nodded proudly.

"Damn my misshapes!" I said a little louder then usual but still not that loud.

Mike's eyes widened. I saw Jenna and Lauren chatting in the corner by the water cooler, I noticed Jenna's attention turn to us.

"Mike you alright?" Jenna asked as she pulled Lauren over.

"Um mind taking Vic to where he'll be keeping all his stuff I have to talk to Kellin." Both girls nodded and lead Vic out of the room. "Kells, Vic is new and is really excited about being your nurse please just allow him to do what he needs without murdering him."

"I'm sorry can we go back to my room?" I asked back to my quiet voice looking at the floor.

"You have my permission to go back on your own but I'll send Vic in there in a while to check up on you then I'll be in there shortly after okay bud?" Mike said placing a hand on my shoulder.

I nodded and made my way back to my room.

~

I was sat on my bed staring at my wall thinking about nothing when the door opened.

"hey." Vic said walking into the room, "Can I sit?" He asked pointing to a open space in my bed next me. I nodded and he sat. "So I'm Vic Fuentes, Mike's older brother, and I'm going to be your personally nurse."

"I don't need a personally nurse." I said looking at my bed.

"I believe you but I was assigned by the head honcho and you always follow bosses orders." Vic said making me laugh a little and look up. "So um yea since we're going to be seeing each other everyday for a while, might as well get to know each other. I'll go first." Vic clasped his hands together as he smiled widely. "I am Victor Fuentes, call me Vic please. I am 28, I just got fired from my other job. I live with Mike. I like alcohol and dudes. Your turn!"

"I'm Kellin Quinn. I'm 21. I've been trapped here since I was 19. I hate it here. I like food and dudes." I gave him a small smile. I've never said this much to a new person.

"Eh I don't like it here much either." Vic said falling back onto the empty spot behind him. "It's to white."

"White walled hell." I said looking forward at my wall.

"White walled hell." Vic said looking at the ceiling.