My younger brother[completed]

Home again.

Ross

As I walk home with Rydel in my arms she has a coughing fit for a while so I pick up my pace walking. I reach the our house and open the door.
"Guys! Something wrong with Rydel!" I yell when I get inside. I hear footsteps coming from all around me. I scurry to the couch an put Rydel down. I sit next to her and my mom comes over us.
"Rydel honey what's wrong?" She asks sweetly.
"She's been coughing non-stop since yesterday." I explain.
"Alright she's just tired and has a cold."
"Alright mom." I say and look up at her. She has tears in her eyes. Tears start to form in mine and I reach up and hug her,tightly. She flinches at first but then hugs me back just as tight. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Ross." Is all she says over and over again. Tears roll down hers and my cheeks.
"It okay momma. It's okay."
"I love you Ross. So much. I'm sorry about everything. Please don't leave again." She sobs.
"Okay I won't." I say and pull out of her arms. I kiss her cheek and she kisses mine.
The rest of my family just stares at me like I have 2 heads. I look down at Rydel and she somewhat smiles at me. I lean down and hug her. I don't wanna look at my family right now. But I have to face them sooner or later. I choose later.
I pull away from Rydel and start to stand up. When I stand up I feel someone wrapping there arms around me. It's my dad. I hug back still crying. He has some tears rolling down his eyes too. And my dad never cries. Ever.
"I love you son."
"I love you to daddy." I say and let him go. He follows my mom into the kitchen and I don't really know what to do. My brothers aren't gonna wanna talk to me. I look down at Rydel and see she's fast asleep. What do I do?
"So... You all hate me?" I ask looking down.
"We don't really hate you. We just aren't fond of you." Rocky says. Wow that hurts.
"Oh." Is all I say. It's all I can say. My own brothers just basically agreed they hate me.
"Yup." Ryland says.
"So you hit Rydel?" I ask Ryland.
"She hit me first. I already got my ass chewed for it. I don't need to hear it from you." He snaps.
"Is this what it's gonna be like if I'm gonna be here? Are you 2 gonna make me feel even worse about it all?" I ask. "What did I ever do to you two? Really I did nothing wrong. I just fell in love with the wrong person." I say and look at Riker. His heads low.
"You didn't do anything to us. You did fall in love. With your older brother. I can't even think about that. It's nasty. That would be falling in love with Rydel or Rocky." Ryland states.
"Put yourself in my shoes like you just said. Pretend you're me. Pretend you were just told you're own 2 brothers hate you. Pretend they don't accept who you really are. Pretends a big word Ryland. To me that pretend is real life. It's not a joke." I say and tears fall all over again.

I stare at Ryland and Rocky as they try to process all I said. "How would you like it if you were me? It makes you feel like shit doesn't it? It makes you feel unwanted, worthless, and a freak. Yeah all of those might be true about me, but it still hurts." I explain and look at them. Tears fall more and more as I talk.
They're speechless.

I look down for minute and look back up at them. They just stare at the ground. I don't know what to do. I go to the kitchen where my parents are. They are cleaning. "I'll be outside." I say just above a whisper. I walk out the back sliding door and go out to the pool. I walk to the back and sit down in the corner in the shade. I need time to think. I hear yelling from inside. I try not to pay to much attention to it but its echoing through my head. 'They're fighting because of me.' That just makes more tears roll. I hear the sliding door open and see Ryland walking out. He comes and sits next to me. I keep my head in between my legs.
"I'm sorry Ross. I didn't know you felt like that."
"Why wouldn't I Ry? Riker played me for over a month. You and rocky hate me. Mom and dad didn't even talk to me. What am I suppose to feel like?"
"I-I don't know Ross. But I don't hate you. I just didn't like the fact you and Riker were together. It's not normal."
"I know it's not but I can't help it. I tried ignoring the feeling but it wouldn't go away. I didn't know what to do. I felt the same way you are. I thought it was nasty, weird, not normal but then it got so big I couldn't stand it. I had to tell someone. The only one Who knew I was gay was rydel. And she let it slip." I cry and he pulls me into a hug.
"I'm sorry Ross. I really am. I just wasn't thinking."
"It's okay I guess." I say.
"How about we go play video games. Just you and me."
"Okay. But first what was the yelling about. Don't lie please."
"Oh it was nothing."
"What was it?"
"Dad yelled at me and Rocky for not apologizing to you."
"So you aren't really sorry? Dad just made you do this?" I ask looking directly in his eyes.
"No. Well at first it was. They said when you and Delly get back we all have to apologize first thing. I was just gonna apologize but then I thought it through and I really am sorry." He says and I can tell he's not Lying by the look in his eyes.
"Okay I believe you." I say and stand up. He follows me and we hug each other.
"I love you lil' bro."
"I love you to big bro." He says and we walk inside.

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