Useless- langst oneshots

Alternative universe

What if Lance self harmed, like a lot and he always hid it well. After Keith left Lance felt so alone as his friends drifted away from him. Pidge had Hunk, Shiro had Allura and Allura had Coran. Lance had no specialities in any technology so he couldn't help out around the ship and he mostly spent his time wasting away in the training room. Every time he tried to have a genuine conversation with someone he was shut down because when was Lance ever sincere and meant it. He tried to act like a goofball when he was in front of everyone because he didn't want to put his burden on their shoulders.

When he returned back to his room he slowly began taking down any decorations he had put up until his room was barren. The reason Lance's bayard could turn into a knife was because thats what he used. He would walk over to Pidge and sit next to her but she just said "not now Lance" so he went to the kitchen and saw Hunk in the middle of mixing stuff together so he left because he didn't want to interrupt and he didn't even try going to Allura or Coran because they would shut him down so he went over to shiro, sat down beside him and cracked a couple of jokes. Shiro kept looking at his work and not giving Lance a second glance until he gritted his teeth and said "Lance could you just- please I'm really busy" and Lance just goes "oh, okay. No problem" and walk out happily until he got to his room.

Then he let everything out.

He cried and hid his head in his pillow, muffling his sobs and clenched onto his sheets until his knuckles turned white. He picked up his bayard and it transformed into a tiny blade. He gripped onto the handle with his hands shaking and cut open a new slice going down his forearm. This wasn't the first. He rolled up his sleeves to show more scars, some more faint than the others and some less than a week old. He cut again into his upper arm and then went onto his other arm when he started scratching with it, creating many small little cuts but he got angry and went harder, creating deeper wounds  until his whole right arm was shaking violently and dripping with blood but he didn't stop.

He held the blade firmly in his hand with he jaw clenched and put the tip of the blade on top of the main artery in his arm and slowly pressing in, he dragged it down his arm until he reached his wrist, then he placed the bayard in his right hand and slowly dragged the blade through his skin and sliced open his artery, blood pouring everywhere.

He couldn't feel the pain as he held the dagger with two hands and dragged it down his thighs, the blood pooling on the floor and drenching his sheets. He was covered in red and finally let go of the bayard, dropping it where it splashed in the puddle of blood on the floor.

He sighed and clenched his teeth, putting his head back and felt the darkness coming for him.

That is, before Hunk walked in.

"Hey Lance I just whipped up an awesome dish in the kitchen and I- Lance? Lance! LANCE! NONONNONOONONO! Lance buddy, you gotta stay with me, come on, come on. Its alright. SHIRO, CORAN ANYONE I NEED YOU TO COME TO LANCES ROOM RIGHT NOW!" He cradled Lances body in his arms and tried to put pressure on the wounds, drenched in Lances blood.

"What wrong- LANCE! GET HIM TO THE INFIRMARY NOW! EVERYONE GET TO THE INFIRMARY AS FAST AS YOU CAN!" Shiro had stood motionless for one second before jumping in.

They carried Lances body wrapped in his blankets all the way across the castle, trekking bloody footprints through the corridors. Hunk was whispering to Lance and Shiro was leading the way.

'Hey were all here whats- LANCE OH MY GOD, GET HIM ON THE TABLE NOW! CORAN GET ME BANDAGES AND A SUETERING KIT, ALLURA CAN YOU DO ANY OF YOUR ALTEAN MAGIC TO SAVE HIM?" Pidge was already giving him chest compressions as the machines started firing up. "HE'S 70 OVER 52 AND DROPPING! HEART RATE 43 AND DROPPING TOO! WE NEED BLOOD IF HE'S GONNA SURVIVE!" Hunk handed over a fist aid kit he found while coran got the proper suetering items.

Shiro stood by Lance and held his hand, soothing him as he faded in an out of consciousness. "SHIRO I NEED YOU TO USE YOUR ARM TO CAUTERISE LANCE NOW!"  He activated his arm and held it against Lances cuts, looking away as he screams out in pain.

"Shiro, I need you to keep doing chest compressions on Lance. Do we have any blood?" She looked around but coran shook his head.

" DAMMIT!" She threw her glasses to the ground and growled out of frustration. "WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO DO A LIVE TRANSFUSION IF WE HAVE ANY CHANCE OF HIM LIVING. FROM WHAT THE MACHINE SAYS, HE'S LOST ABOUT TWO LITERS, MAYBE EVEN MORE. ANYONE HERE AN O-?" She crossed her fingers and scanned her friends.

"I AM!" Hunk rushed to Pidges side as she rummaged through all the medical equipment. She pulled out a bag and a tube with a syringe and rushed to set it up.

"We don't have time for this not to hurt okay?" Hunk nodded and pidge stabbed in the needle, filling up the bag.

"CORAN SET UP AN IV SYSTEM WITH THE THICKEST NEEDLE YOU CAN FIND!"  She ripped out the bag from hunks line and connected a new bag.

"Allura, I'll need you to go get some water and something really high in sugar for hunk, were taking a lot of blood!" Pidge hurriedly set the bag in place on the IV and plugged in tube, watching with relief and she saw the blood flowing through the tube. She took the needle out of hunk and detached the bag, placing it on the IV stand and plugging it in, watching as both bags flow steadily into lance.

Each bag was worth half a Litre, she needed one more if she was to be certain Lance would survive. "Pidge, I think that I am this O- blood type you speak of," Coran said as if he'd read her thoughts.

She wiped off the needle and stuck that into Coran. They had four blood bags in total. She filled that bag up and waited. Hunk was being tended to, Shiro stopped doing chest compressions on pidges orders and pidge was sewing up Lance.

"Oh man Lance. Why did you- oh"  She cut open Lances shirt and saw all the other marks. He had on boxer briefs and a now cut in half shirt and she had finally wiped away enough blood to see how much damage Lance had really done.

"Oh my god Lance. I'm so sorry. How did I not see it, I'm so sorry I-" she finally caved in. Tears streamed down her face  as she cradled him in her arms, holding him up to her face. "You've been suffering all alone and none of us noticed, I'm- I'm so, so sorr-ry. Its all my fault!"

Shiro put his hand on pidges shoulder which made her look up. "Hey, don't say that. Its not just your fault pidge. Non of us noticed, we're all to blame." The others looked down in shame as tears welled in their eyes.

"Lets get him into the medical chamber all right?" Pidge wanted to change the subject, she was chocking in the atmosphere.

They hauled him carefully off the bed and into the chamber, where pidge coded it to the right settings and closed the door.

She crumpled down in front of the chamber and smashed her fists against the ground. "I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so, I'm so... sorry." Hunk sat down next to her and pulled her in for a hug, with pidge crying in his lap. Shiro slowly sat down too and one by one they all sat next to each other, holding others and comforting Pidge. And then they dozed off.

Lance woke up and saw all his friends lying, sprawled out on top of each other out side his chamber as he remembered what happened. Lance clenched his fists and began crying as he kneeled down and hugged them, waking them up. Thry each hugged him and put him in the middle where they all held each other.

"Lance, I so sorry I should have-"

"Its okay Pidge, it not your fault. Its my fault for being so selfish." He smiled through the tears and held onto pidges arm tighter.

"Its none of your faults. I'm so sorry, I wasn't thinking..."

"Its okay Lance, we don't blame you." Shiro squeezed Lances hand and let Lance fall asleep. They went to a lounge room and grabbed an insanely large mattress which they laid out on the floor, with lance in the middle, hunk and pidge on his right side and shiro, allura and coran on the other side.

They were going to protect lance, no matter what.