Blue

Nine

~Blue

"I HATE YOU."

I meant it when i said that. After our conversation in the cafeteria, I went home. I couldn't complete my classes when I knew I'd see him again. I knew the little crush I had for him was bound to be 'CRUSHED' and that's why I love myself. I'm hardly heartbroken.

Mom wasn't back when I got home which was a relief. She would have asked thousands of questions if she knew I came back that early. I wasn't ready to think of Jake or anything that happened. We were not dating and we'll never! He's a player! A cheat! An asshole. Ewww! I hate him for real

My phone beeped which meant I had a message. I was reluctant to get it at first but I still did.

When i got my phone, i noticed it was Jake and I  ignored it. He's soo horrible. I practically don't like him. I've lost all interest in him, and I'm so happy about it.

Later that night, Jake called like 10 times which i answered at the 10th time.

"What is it?! What is wrong with you? Leave me alone! You're disturbing me!!" i screamed at the phone.

"Blue please.. Gosh. What would I do to earn your forgiveness? "

"Nothing! Just leave me alone! "

"That, i don't think i can do."

"Urghh!"

There was a slight silence and i heard him take in air once, twice, trying to calm himself. I was surprised he didn't let his anger out as usual.

"Blue? "he said my name softly, calmly like his life would be saved if he pronounced it well, "I'm really...um... so..rry for my actions during lunch, for the words i said to you. The Stupid Words!" he shouted, "I'm..um... So...rry for the date also." I was angry he reminded me of it now. "And wait..wait.. I'm sure you're angry I reminded you of it but please.. Please Blue.. I'm really, extremely.. sorry. Brie forced me and all, but I'm sure that shouldn't​ be an excuse. I'm sorry."

Wow? An apology from him?  I didn't expect an apology as good as that. I didn't know what to say but I knew I couldn't resist the way he called my name, and how he apologized.

"Please Blue? " he asked bringing me back to the present.

"I..um..." I didn't know what to say.

"Do you forgive me?" he asked immediately and I thanked him silently for it was getting awkward.

"Well... You did a good job apologizing like that." I said trying to tease him.

"C'mon?! I tried Blue!"

I giggled slightly. He was frustrated.

"Ok ok I was just messing with you. You're forgiven."

"Yeyyy! " he shouted like a little baby.

"Alright already.. Bye"

"Ok bye.. Goodnight Blue. We'll talk tomorrow right?

"Yeah right. Yup. Goodnight ."

Wow.. I feel..relieved. If this is what it feels like after making up with your 'boyfriend'it is really worth the feeling. I was happy we were friends again. Fianlly back to our crazy friend zone too.

But, on a serious note, I don't think I'm attracted to Jake as I was before. Like I said, I'm not sooo emotional like other girls, but I'm surprised i don't feel that tingy feeling you get when you're talking to your crush, feeling like your heart is in your throat already. I didn't get that feeling.

Well, I guess the crush really is 'CRUSHED' and I must say, this time I'm surprised. I thought i actually liked liked him but I guess.. Nope. There's really nothing like 'l, o fucking v e!

I got bored after making dinner for mom and watching Netflix and baking some cookies. I decided to go to my whatsapp. I wasn't surprised I had 1254 messages from 20 chats but.. Phft. Whateva!!

I was in 10 groups formed by -God knows who. There were names like,  Nerds, Art Students,  Music group, Drama group, Grammarians, the one that caught my eye was LEAVE HIM ALONE!

Woah! Who gives a group that kind of name. Well no wonder there were many messages the highest I'd gotten so far. I checked the 'LEAVE HIM ALONE!' group and found out that It was all Brie telling me what she'd do if I don't leave Jake alone. I laughed out loud when I saw it. I mean, I literally have feelings for him that's for sure and I'm not willing to. The secret has to remain safe.

That's true! I almost forgot my priority here, be cool and don't be noticed, but that's just impossible now. I have Brie to deal with, Jake's flirting, Lisa and the girls. I can't loose them.. Never!

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Sorry this chapter is short. Sorry sorry sorry. Like i said I've been stealing my phone to update and publish, so it's taking a lot of time. Bye gotta go 😘