Blue

Twelve

~Blue

Lunch was fantastic (note the sarcasm there). As usual, the tension between Jake and I was strong. I thought the crush had died, i guess it hadn't. After the tour with Stephen, I found Jake by his car. He decided to follow us to Stephen's car.

Thanks again fo the tour" he said leaning on the driver's door. "I can give you a ride as a payment" he said, a smirk on his face.

Jake held me immediately so that I'd notice he was the one giving me the ride.

"Thanks, Steve, Jake always gives me rides"

"Tomorrow, I'd drop you off. Guess i booked it first"

I didn't kniw what to answer to that. He was acting really sweet.

"Alright, that's okay."

"Yeah, see ya tomorrow" and with that he left.

I turned over to Jake and his mouth was open. I was about to laugh at his expression. He looked hilarious.

"What was that all about?" he asked on our way to his car, "he's driving you tomorrow? Blue i always drive you home"

"Yes i know, that's why i want someone different."

"I don't understand"

"You drive me a lot Jake, i appreciate which is why i want to save you the burden of always taking me home"

"But i love doing it"

"No, you don't " i was surprised he used the L-word, somehow. I liked it.

"Yes i do. Even if i end up not getting a peck on my cheek, i still love taking you home and getting to know more about you. Blue"

We were now in front of his car. He held my upper arm and made me to look at him. He looked deeply into my eyes, then his gaze went to my lips. I had goosebumps all over my body.

Did i do this to him? I hope. I like him this way.

"Can we go out, on Saturday ?" he asked, breaking the silence.

"Go out? Like what? " I asked almost breathlessly trying to get myself.

"Go out, go out, it may be a date. May or may not. But please Blue, don't say no"

"I guess I don't have any other options"

With that, he opened the door for the passenger's seat for me and closed it when I entered. I didn't know what that was about, but an alone time with Jake would be nice. Mom won't be home.

When he entered hiscar, he looked at me again. "Did i tell you, you look beautiful today?"

After he said this, i couldn't hide it. I felt the heat on my face already. He called me beautiful. I'm beautiful. Is he serious? Am I? I am!

"Thanks" was the only thing i could say

He took me to my house which was empty. I was glad mom won't be home any sooner. So, we could talk for ages.

"Blue? " he said coming to sit bedside me on the couch. "I really have a lot to say"

"Go on? We've got all day. Mom isn't coming back till 2am"

"Great! I've got more time" i found him fondling with his fingers which he hardly does but i found it cute. "Promise me you won't hate me if i say this"

I crossed my chest trustingly and brought out my pinky finger "I pinky swear" I said knowing that i won't want to hate him again

We joined our pinkies together and it was decided. He looked at me again his eyes boring into mine. I knew i saw it; fear, sadness, and one more thing.. It can't be. It couldn't be the l-word. Nope. I still had that one secret...