Blue

Fifteen

~Blue

I couldn't sleep at all. I was thinking mom would come to console me but, I guess she had her own problems to deal with. My eyes were blood red when I looked into the mirror but I didn't even care.

What's going on?

Why do I hate my life already?

I really needed a life coach right now!(note the sarcasm there, they're the worst)

Do you ever get that feeling, that weird feeling when you think everything is falling into place, or that nothing can ever make you sad, and all of a sudden this burden arrives, or a mistake or just something, making you feel nothing but pain, hatred, sadness, depression.

Yeah I bet you'd never.

There are times you'd just sit on a chair or lay on your bed, not sleeping, just... thinking about life or school or just something bothering you, trying to find a solution to any known problem, but you just can't find that solution.

It's like being drunk in yourself.

My head wasn't at rest. My heart and mind, the same. Exams are close by and I couldn't risk getting nothing less than a B in my grade.

I've always known myself as being too emotional. Yeah...but I know I'm strong. I feel that I am and you know what, I'm gonna stand up for myself and be the best in my class. Yeah I can do that.

God knows how much I miss dad. He's usually my night in shining armour.

I just laid there on my bed, starring at the beautiful painting of a cool blue sky, with a calm sea and a dolphin about to jump into the water.

It calmed my mind... and soon I was already asleep (for the nth time that night).

Finally morning....

Oh dear morning, what do you have, installed​ for me today??!!

As usual, I woke up, I said my morning prayers and started the day like any regular day(which was unusual).

I set my phone down after looking at my missed calls and texts and put my favorite​ playlist on, and dancing to one of Nicki's songs.

Yeah...I guess I'm up for a crazy day!!! ;-)

I got dressed in a nice blue sweat shirt and joggers.

Yeah...like I said... crazy.

I ran downstairs, took some Kellogg's cereal and was off to school. Yayyy Elmore's!!!=_=

Luckily, the first person I met was Lisa and she asked a lot of questions concerning the number​of times I didn't answer her texts or calls.

We had a little chat about the whole situation but I'm not that kind of person who prefers to share my feelings with other people..it felt weird.

Judging from the kind of person Lisa was, I couldn't hide much. I told her the stuff about Jake in the restaurant and how I slept off and forgot​everything concerning myself...

I noticed the way people starred at me as I walked past the hallway with Lisa. Was it the clothes or my hair?

Nahh I don't think so. My clothes were dope plus no one ever really cared bout' what I wear to ach cuz I'm still a "new" student.

I just smiled and continued walking majestically till I saw the reason for the stares.

Jake was standing in front of my first class, with a large cardboard which wrote:

'I AM VERY SORRY MS. HATHAWAY!!!! I DIDN'T MEAN IT SO LET ME EXPLAIN'

Well, that was really embarrassing!!!

I wanted to hide inside a closet right now and just shut the world out!

I couldn't deny him this time cuz everyone was here to witness it and would blame me if Jake goes through something like a heartbreak!

But you know, in almost all relationships, no matter how right the girl is, people always presume she's the cause of a quarrel and she ends up apologizing for something she didn't do.

It is so frustrating!!!!

It's not like we're a couple or something!! I didn't want to talk to him so that I could forget these feelings that had been building up.

I just stood there, waiting for someone to tell me what to do cuz I was dumbfounded.

Wow!!!

I never really expected this though! He said he'd try to stay away!! What happened to that!!!!

I just stared into his eyes for a moment and walked passed him but I whispered that he should meet me after school and walked to my class.

If you were among the audience, you won't have noticed that I said something to him, so others thought I ignored his apology and walked out but that was the rumor that went round the school before lunch period:

"Blue Hathaway ignores Jake's public apology to her, as she walks past him after he meets her"

Well, rumors never had any effect on me right from my former school. Yeah I didn't really care bout those cuz I knew what happened and of cuz Lisa and Jake!

The rest of the day was like any other normal day, lunch, recess etc...

After school, he found me by the fountain with my phone, replying the useless messages I got from some friends. No one was in school then cuz I had to lock the library before leaving.

"Hey?" He asked

"Yo" I said not really looking at him.

"Sooo??? Em.. look, Blue, I'm sure whatever you're​ thinking​ of me right now is something negative. I can explain wha-"

"Yeah?" I cut in, pretending like I wasn't listening

"I mea-"

"Oh you're done? Shish thanks. I thought that was going to take a lot of time" I was about to walk out but he held my wrist.

"Look, Blue let's just have dinner and I'd explain"

"I ain't going on no date with you lover boy. Uh uh"

"It's not a date...I just...I mean it's better so you won't get to stand"

Silence....

"I'd buy you some tacos​, pizza, anything you want and I promise to take you home"

"Deal"

Yeah... My sweeeriiieeeessss!!!😫😫😫😫❤❤❤❤❤

I'm so sorry I haven't updated in a longtime!!!

I've been trying to cut myself off from gadgets and I'd been doing fine with that

I know the chapter is kinda odd... It actually took time to really come up with something since I forgot my story line!

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Muuna loves u ❤💪