Poems and stuff

maybe

this passage will maybe come through

and maybe ill publish

or maybe it wont do

perhaps ill find reason if i post the power

of words no longer sour

no, that wont do

if i come to terms with my own wisdom

conquer the walls within my own kingdom

take back myself and what i used to be

maybe ill find peace most definitely 

maybe its unwanted, 

un-haunted and untainted

so ethereal that i dont realize its affect

and maybe self doubt is my own defect

maybe self love is something i must perfect

i dont feel like i deserve it

or even if i earned it but i have so much to give to so many others

maybe i must direct it to some other

no, its not right

a daughter lost without a mother

memories and words in my head left to smother

and somehow i always give love to the others 

maybe i need to find no other

maybe i deserve the self respect

maybe i am too sorry at times 

maybe i often forget

maybe there is no button to reset it all

but still, 

maybe there is some regret

maybe i need some rest